(:

after much deliberation and consideration, i have decided to switch totally to tumblr. sigh i know, such a conformist. but it's just so much easier to blog from my itouch than from my computer. and plus it's kind of more fun over there. but, i will leave this blog here rather than delete it so that one day when i'm old and weary and want to look back it will be here. :)

catch me on tumblr [jessicadnguyen.tumblr.com]

farewell blogspot you were far too good to me. <3

<3

LTC. CHRISTMAS. PARTY.

TODAY. EXCITEDNESS. *dies*

winterbreak.

FINALLY, i've waited so long. it's finally here, winter break. i'm so glad. so yeah. i just thought i'd say. THANK GOD IT'S FINALLY FREAKING WINTER BREAK.

i'm so excited, this year is going to be so good. oh yeah, found my tumblr again i'll be spamming that with pictures instead of this blog from now on [jessicadnguyen.tumblr.com]. so check it. and. did i say i'm excited? yes i freaking am. (:

love, jdn.

where are you now?

to my favorite teacher, who told me never give up. to my fifth grade crush, who i thought i really loved. to the girls i missed and the guys we kissed. where are you now? to my ex best friends, don't know how we grew apart. to my favority band and sing alongs in my car. to the face i see in my memories, where are you now? where are you now? 'cause i'm thinking of you. you showed me how. how to live like i do. if it wasn't for you. i would never be who i am. to my first boyfriend, i thought for sure was the one. to my last boyfriend, sorry that i screwed it up. to the ones il oved but didn't show it enough. where are you now? where are you now? 'cause i'm thinking of you. you showed me how. how to live like i do. if it wasn't for you. i would never be who i am. and i'll never see those days again. and things will never be that way again. but that's just how it goes. people change. but i know. i won't forget you. to the ones who cared. and who were there from the start. to the love that left. and took a piece of my heart. to the few who'd swear i'd never go anywhere. where are you now? where are you now? 'cause i'm thinking of you. you showed me how. how to live like i do. if it wasn't for you. i would never be who i am. where are you now?

thank you, honor society.

don't stop believin'.

 just a small town girl, living in a lonely world.

she took the midnight train going anywhere.

don't stop believing.

hold on to the feeling.

streetlight people.

is it here yet?

i wish christmas would just come already. i'm excited. i just. love the feeling of christmas in the air. giving presents. getting presents. the smiles. the laughter. hot chocolate. and roasting marshmallows. and joy. and happiness. and just the feeling of waiting for christmas to come. not just for little kids who are waiting for santa but waiting for that moment when nothing really matters except being with the people you love.

so on christmas eve my little sister and i are setting up a tent in the living room next to the christmas tree and we're going to camp out next to the christmas tree. and we're going to try to wake up at 12AM and rip open our presents. and we're going to tell ghost stories in this tiny tent. and eat junk food. and flash flashlights around. and just do crazy stuff in this tiny tent we've had for a bajillion years. as embarassing and as lame as it is. i'm extremely excited. i seriously love my little sister.

the topic of winter formal has been flying around. to go or not to go. that is the question. i don't know. winter formal isn't really my kind of scene. i might go just to support maria since she and girl's league worked so hard to plan it. maybe. i get the feeling i'll be extremely uncomfortable in that environment. i think i'll just hang out outside. (:

anyways, this week has been actually a really good week. two more days until winter break is here. i'm so excited. and so ready for the two weeks of relaxation. are you having a good day? i hope so.

muchos gracias, jessicadnguyen.

time for some changes.

bad. ass.

rainy day blues.

when it rains, i feel sad. maybe it's 'cause when it rains, i think god is crying for us.

oh so so.

sometimes it's really scary when you're surrounded by people but feel incredibly alone. i'm standing in this insane crowd. people everywhere. talking. eating. laughing. smiling. christmas music playing in the background. soapy snow falling on top of my head. and yet the only thing i can do is stare at the sky and think about how lonely life can be. it sends shivers down my spine just thinking about it. maybe that's why i hate being alone. it's just scary, the concept of spending the rest of your life by yourself. eating alone. watching tv alone. going places alone. whenever i see people eating alone at restaurants i wish i could sit with them. you know how boring it is to eat alone? really boring. i did it this morning. everyone was somewhere. so i made myself a bowl of cereal and read the newspaper. the house was really quiet, kind of scary. i could hear everything. water dripping. fridge humming. the house moving. rustle of the newspaper. crunch goes the cereal. kind of creepy. solitude is.

yesterday was the FV tree lighting, which was where i was practically ten hours of the day. i was there in the morning from eight to eleven thirty ish. then came home went to church for three hours. then went straight back and stayed from five until ten at night cleaning and helping with booths. it was really fun. i spent most of the night playing with doug. we had to shovel up the fake snow. with our HANDS. it was very cold. the fireworks were nice. yaddayaddayadda, who cares.

oh so, catch me if you can.

pensive blogging.

i wish i had a pensieve. you know, the one from harrypotter? the little bowl thing that dumbledore keeps his thoughts in. if i had one of those, that'd be pretty cool. i could just put all the confusing our contradicting thoughts in the bowl. and then i could just spend hours staring at them until they made sense. they could just swirl around until they separated into things that i could understand. but. then again, if EVERYONE had a pensieve, life wouldn't be as interesting. right? right.

something quick while i annotate.

douglas tran is my freaking blog hero. i wish i could blog like him. :(


i'll blog this weekend. kay? bye!




oh yeah, doesn't it feel like christmas? i love it. (:

hey, i'm breathing.

so here we go again. haven't blogged for real in awhile. not that i'm not busy tonight but i just feel the urge to blog. today i talked to an assortment of people. all of whom i miss talking to or seeing on a daily basis. [yes you christina hung, miss you to pieces.] but yeah, i think i'm in a good mood right now, after all the reconnections with the people in my life.

tomorrow is disneyland. i get the feeling i'm gonna get a lot of thinking done tomorrow. weird right? but i always get nostalgic at disneyland. i get that. man, i wish you were here with me thing going on. which. yeah, i really do wish you were with me. at disneyland. *tears*

keyclub this saturday. i'm extremely excited to see my friendlies doug and brandon. especially since i haven't seen them in a long time. :( and also i love the feeling of being at keyclub early in the morning. how can people NOT love it? (: *waves at doug* [hey doug! i'm breathing! :)]

i'm tired. but i do'nt want to sleep. i think i don't want to miss out on this limited time.

nts: GOPHER CARD. :D

sincerely yours, jessicadnguyen.

gift from the sea.

so i've been reading it.

solitude is right. it's something i need.

life is too busy these days.

no time to think.

wedding tomorrow, very excited. did everyone have a nice thanksgiving? i hope so.

lifesaver popsicles are...

GODSEND. they are so freaking delicious. like. 12 popsicles for 99CENTS. it's amazing. they taste like lifesavers. i am completely content spending my life eating these things every now and then. :)

anyways, that's all i had to say. i'm going to go read now! i went to the library today! (:

happy viet martyrs' day.

 all i have to say is.

jesus. and. me. together. forever. (:

musings.

i, unfortanetly, must watched the foxla news cast about mr. james and the board meeting. and how the administration is trying to get him fired. [if you want to watch it, the video link is here. http://www.myfoxla.com/dpp/news/local/local_teacher_allegedly_forced_to_quit_20091117]. it's. just a sad thing to watch. and hear about. i almost cried watching the video.even though i've never had a class with mr. james. i sure do know how much of an impact he has on our school. whenever you need him he's there for you. like the time i ripped my dollar and he taped it back together for me. mr. james is such a big part of LQ. the fact that the administration is trying to get him fired. is just awful. i hope mr. james is okay. i'm done talking about it. mr. james=strength.

hm what to say. i had a lot to say. but i'm kinda speechless sad now.

i don't know why i care. it's not like we're that good of friends anyways. it's not like you're there for me through thick and thin. it's not like if i called you right now and said i was in trouble, you'd come running. it's not like i meant anything to you anyways. i don't want to care anymore. life's unfair. yeahyeah i know, when was life ever fair anyways?

dear mr. vernon, we accept the fact that we had to sacrifice a whole saturday in detention for whatever it was we did wrong. but we think you're crazy to make us write an essay telling you who we think we are. you see us as what you want to see us. in the simplest terms. in the most convenient definitions. but. what we found out is that each one of us is a brain. and an athlete. and a basket case. a princess. and a criminal. does that answer your question?

sincerely yours the breakfast club.

pure blog one.

hello pure blog, here i go.

i've been a busy girl lately. it's kind of scary. i've had to start putting my priorities in their place. there are just too many things to do. not enough time. not enough jessicas. there's so much pressure junior year. i'm taking my sats in january. and i have to worry about financial aid stuff that i have to get done. teen values club is dying. trying my best to go to keyclub events. have to throw in going to thieunhi and of course i have to go to church. sigh. it's okay. i'm okay. actually, i think i'm getting better at the juggling. not so much at the stress handling. but hey, good news. that physics final i was stressing about? i did good. proud of myself? heck yeah. it was a reminder that yeah, i can do this.

i won't write more. but i have caught up on you're beautiful. and it still makes me wish i was just. that girl.

doug brought up a good point. he asked me, jokingly, to proofread his blog. can you even do that? is there some way to. some how. edit your own thoughts. the things that come to mind. i think i try to. like when i accidentally think about me and you being together when i accidentally catch you in the corner of my eye. in the corner of my mind. and then i try to brush the thought out of my mind, because i'm not supposed to think them. is that editting your thoughts? pretending you never thought of them? pretending like. it never came to mind? because if that's what it is. i'm guilty of doing it. aren't we all?

christmas is coming. can you feel it? it's in the air.

conceptual question. is jessica ever going to get tired of waiting for something that might never come?

answer: d. cannot be answered with the information given.

heartbeat.

i haven't blogged in awhile. too busy.

i'm very confused. don't know what to think.

can you feel my heartbeat? the heart that you've stomped on is still beating and even so towards you. no matter how hard i try, no matter how many new people i meet. and again and again. why must i turn around and think of you? i'm going to stop, i want to stop. though i calm myself again, it's no use. my heart is broken, why? why am i still doing these stupid things, my mind seems to understand. but why must my heart still act on its own? i grabbed you and i still can't let you go. it still seems like you're by my side, i can't believe in goodbyes. no matter who meet, i can't open a part of my heart, and i keep leaving a space for you. there's no reason for you to come back. but my heart keeps believing you will. why won't it listen? listen to my heartbeat. it's beating for you.

seriously? back to square one.

don't forget.

today was enlightening. i went to the cemetery with thieunhi people. we went around to the people we knew who were at the cemetery who died and prayed for them. at first i was reluctant to go. because you know, who wants to spend their saturday at a cemetery? but in the end, i was rather glad i went. we first went to anh son's burial spot. i do'nt really remember him. he was a huynh truong at st. barbara when i was 7 years old. he died when he was 20. i looked at his picture and i recognized his face. god, life is so short...we stopped at other burials. jimmy's dad for instance. he really looked like jimmy. i wonder how jimmy felt when he died. its not something i've ever really thought about. then we stopped by chi nga's niece's burial spot. her niece was a baby. only seven months old. and she died leaving behind a twin. a lot of babies that wer eburied there were only a few months old. we even saw one that was only two hours old. that made me think. damn life is REALLY short. and we stopped by some other people's burial spots like john's grandma. and bob's grandma. but the one that really made me tear up was the boy from another church. he was from lavang i think? i don't remember his name. i remember his saint name though, andrew. he was twelve years old when something in his brain went wrong. and he died. his birthday was two days ago, on thursday. november fifth. he would have been fourteen years old. it just really hit close to home. i didnt' know the kid personally but i remember seeing him at camp. and anh huy knew him and. it was the first burial i saw that was a kid almost my age. who went to thieu nhi and. i remembered seeing at camp. he was buried in his thieu nhi uniform. that's amazing. and it really made me think about how. short life is. our last stop was anh mau. he dedicated his life to thieu nhi. and i remember watching the skit about him at camp. it made me cry. i think he'll be happy to see that so many people visited his grave. he would've been around fifty this year. man, life is short.

so basically, i learned that life is incredibly short. and you should live it to the fullest. i think all those people we visited are happy today. because they know they aren't forgotten. amen to that.

remember the fifth.

total allusion to v for vendetta right there. (: i love that movie man oh man. and today's the fifth. so remember the fifth. :D i've been really busy. haven't really blogged. except for. maybe the you&i thing. on tuesday. (: SUCH a good song. i also got the new VITASLU album. i am SO HAPPY ABOUT THAT! it's such a good album. vitas lu lulls me to sleep every night now with his beautiful music. *heart* i have a bigfat calculus test tomorrow. but i studied super hard. so hopefully i'll do okay. (: what's happened in the last few days? really? not much. too busy to even think. much too busy. i don't really know what to blog anymore. i had a lot on my mind. but now that i'm blogging. it's just kinda stuck in a rut. well, that's that. today was a cute day. i fought with alex about urban dictionary definitions. i'm pretty sure i won. (:


love always, jessicadnguyen.

TIREDOFWAITING. <3

in honor of the forever leaderjay. i have to post this picture up.

damn, how could you POSSIBLY get tired of waiting for that?

ha. ha. ha.

neil, please don't pull your shirt up when you see that picture.

sincerely yours, jessicadnguyen.

you&i. <3

no matter what happens. even when the sky is falling down. i'll promise you. that i'll never let you go. you, when i fell. you held me back up with an unfaltering gaze. and you, through those sad times. held my hands 'til the end of the world. i might be a shabby person. who has never done anything for you. but today, i am singing this song just for you. tonight, within those two eyes. and a smile. i can see the pains from protecting me. you and i together, it's just feels so right. even though i bid you goodbye, to me this world is just you. you and i together. don't ever let go of my hands. even though i bid you goodbye, to me this world is just you. our love has changed bit by bit. just like others. but don't be sad. hopefully i will be someone who you can trust like an old friend. and someone you can lean onto. i promise you that i'm right here baby. i might be a shabby person. who has never done anything for you. but today, i am singing this song just for you. tonight, within those two eyes. and a smile. i can see the pains from protecting me. you and i together, it's just feels so right. even though i bid you goodbye, to me this world is just you. you and i together. don't ever let go of my hands. even though i bid you goodbye, to me this world is just you. i close my eyes lightly, whenever i feel lonely again. i no longer fear when your breath holds me. no one in the world can replace you. you are the only one in my heart. i'll be there for you baby. you and i together, it just feels so right. even though i bid you goodbye, to me this world is just you. you and i together, don't ever let go of my hands. even though i bid you goodbye. to me this world is just you. just you and i. forever and ever.

lovealways, jessicadnguyen.

off to see the wizard!

last night was halloween. went trickortreating with lany & carl. it was a super fun night. i was dorothy! and lany was belle. and my favorite part of the night was when these two little girls dressed up as belle and sleeping beauty ran up to us and were like "YOU GUYS ARE SO PRETTY!" and we were like "OMG YOU GUYS ARE SO ADORABLE!" they were SO cute. [and i am not a pedophile alex!] and my second favorite part of the night was after we changed back into regular clothes and me and lany and carl walked to the park in her neighborhood and sat there and talked. and then this little boy comes walking towards us and i made a weird ghost noise and the boy stopped dead on his track. and then ran away. THAT WAS SO FUNNY. *tears of laughter* and then we walked back to lany's house. and they were walking big steps. and my short legs did not keep up. failure. all in all. a perfect halloween. :D

i like reading doug's blog. it always sounds so much more insightful than my own.

lately i've been accidentally wishing on a lot of helicopters. i don't know if it's fate that the stars don't want me to wish on them. or because. california's sky is crazily infested with helicopters and light pollution. :/

it's only fiveoclock. but it's rather dark outside. i don't like it. i like the winter. but i hate that it gets dark so quickly. it makes the day feel so short. and it makes me feel scared that there's not enough time to do everything i need to do. freaky.

so i haven't really finished up this blog. i've spent the last hour or so drilling on apphysics problems. apphysics ftw, yeah right. :) tomorrow is monday. i have an apphysics quiz. an apcalculus quiz. aplang socratic seminar, but i'm outercircle which is easypeasy. i have...that's it. (: yay. apcalculus should be easy. related rates is whatever. except for the shadow problems. which are like more like WTF problems. but mr. greek will explain them when he gets back tuesday. we get our new seats for orchestra tomorrow. who wants to make bets that i'll end up in the same seat!? -__- for the past three years i've managed to stay in the same general area. it's freaking ridiculous, which is why i should warn you that if said thing happens again i will most likely be blogging about how insufficient and horrible our leprechaun-lookalike fattie music teacher is. :D

i haven't hyperblogged in awhile. maybe tomorrow? i'm just not feeling CRAZY enough for a hyperblog today. you know what i mean? it's cause i've been sick. WITH SWINE FLU. hahahhahha! :D yeah right. i'll hyperblog when i get in the mood. which will probably be soon. i mean, some days i'm rather crazy. and people know that. but probably by the end of the day i get too tired. and then once i have the time to climb onto my chair and turn on the computer the energy's kinda gone. if i do recall most of my hyperblogs were from summer. oh summer how i miss you. :(

dinner for jessica today: yams. i really like yams. they're so yummy. (:

so i'm browsing tumblr. and they have this. the wire thing. or something. where all the posts that are being posted appear on the screen. if posts are pictures it shows you the pictures and it's constantly changing cause people are posting up stuff. and every now and then some strange person posts up a picture of them making out with their significant other or a weird picture. and i'm just thinking. REALLY?! REALLY? i mean, it's like. do these people have no dignity whatsoever? is it really necessary to post up pictures of you guys making out. or pictures of you in slutty clothes? it's embarassing to the human race. and it's even worse when it's an asian. i'm just like, wow. disgrace the asian population why don't you. i just think it's disgusting. :(

i just saw the snuggies commercial. i...do not understand. it's like...a poncho. with arm holes..."for flexibility in the arms." ... what? ... it's so. stupid. but...i want one. just to see...if it's FOR REAL? i mean. really.a blanket with arm holes. for your arms. flexibility. isn't that like...A JACKET. in poncho form...HOW DO THEY EVEN MAKE A PROFIT OFF THIS. who buys these things?! no comprendo. next year...for halloween. i think i'll be a snuggie. :o

sometimes, i wish my blog was unknown. i think i could be more honest. but at the same time, if no one knew about my blog, i don't think i'd have much fun using it. my blog lets me be a little bit more drama queen than i'd usually be. and. i think. my blog makes me feel a little more important than how i'd usually feel. maybe it's 'cause i'm always imagining a bajillion people reading it. when it's really only like, five people. (:

we keep waiting on the world to stop. but it won't slow down. and we'll never catch up. we keep waiting on the world to stop. but the time is now. and we've got to get off.

happy halloweeeen! (:

but more importantly. HAPPY BIRTHDAY MARIA. we're the same age now! (:

last night was the absolute worst sick night i've ever experienced. it was completly awful. at one point, i have no idea why but i start crying and then i just cry my eyes out for like thirty minutes. then after that my nose is completely stuffed so i'm blowing my nose for thiry minutes while i'm isolated in my room cause my parents and sister don't wanna get sick. and they're watching teevee in my parent's room while i'm dying in my own room. it was kinda sucky. eventually i fell asleep. feeling like crud.

but today i feel much better. (: thank the lord. today's halloween. going trick or treating with lany later. i'm going to be a nghia si! cause i'm hiep si now. SIGHHH. i'm talking to alex right now about how cubic zirconiums are not sufficient wedding rings. he says i'm the black death cause i have the swine flu. i also think that i infected him with the swine flu. GOOD. >:]

okay, it's 12:44. i'm insanely bored. so i'm going to go play games. have a SUPER halloween. and i hope you MAKE GOOD CHOICES, just like ms. rumble says. (:

sincerely yours, jessicadnguyen.

no words.

basically, today was a poc. i woke up feeling HORRIBLY sick. and yeah, that's basically how the rest of the day went. me being horribly sick. coughing swine flu all up in duy's grill. having a headache and kinda feeling feverish. couldn't concentrate because my throat hurt. every part of my body ached. i just felt like crap. but there were some highlights to the day. gave maria, the BALLERINA, her present. getting sandwiches with duy and cringing. mr. nadeau's story. & ms. rumble's class was fun. still feel like a poc right now. just got back from jamba juice, thanks michael. white gummibear makes me feel better. (:

tumblr: "dear heart, today i met a boy. prepare to shatter." yes, i reblogged that picture on tumblr. and that's basically how i feel. you know how liking someone makes you feel like a fool? i certainly feel like a fool sometimes. it's a great feeling, note the sarcasm.

i've been irritable this past week. it might be because swine flu was creeping into my body. or because i was so stressed out about all the crap i had to do. but yeah, easily irritated. sorry. :(

last.fm: jason mraz; i'm yours. oh thank the lord. this song cheers me up.

i feel like i have something to seriously blog about. but i really don't know what it is. let me think. there have been lots of things on my mind. 1. i really enjoy the fact that sometimes you make it seem like you're always there but really you're not. 2. sometimes, people need to realize that i need time to myself. 3. i'm a crazy fool.

so doug really blogged yesterday. which makes me feel bad cause i never REALLY blog. i want to. i really do. but people read this thing right? maybe i'm scared. agreed, i AM scared. fine, i'll really blog.

sometimes, i really hate liking someone because i feel like a fool who's hanging onto this guy's every word. i want to talk to him. no i don't. yes i do. no i don't. i feel like a nuisance. oh crap, i am. oh man,i am i am i am. :( i don't want to be a nuisance. maybe it's a sign to forget it.

i should have stayed home today.

jessicadnguyen. junior class rep.

has a nice ring to it doesn't it? i'm proud of myself! (: me and neil are now co-junior class reps for keyclub. HAPPPYFACE. (: past few days have been REALLLLLY busy. with school and orchestra and abstinence club. aiiish! but today's my break day cause i have NO HOMEWORK. hoooorah! (: for the fall concert i dressed up as a super cheap lame wanda. :( but i liked my pink hair. that was fun. :D HOMECOMING was today. LIPSYNC was amazing. i love you seniors! *heart* class of 2011 made me proud. good job guys. ESPECIALLY the spirit eater part. i was like dangggg! (: geebus. i feel like i haven't blogged ina billion years. which equals like. two days. since last time was monday. (:

since then, maria duy and i have formed the three muskateer compadres. BODing. even though it sounds dirty. it's so funnnny! (: duy's officially my new love guru because you know, he totally got rid of that damn tomtrinhxd for me. :) and now he's helping me out with his love guru skilllls! (: 

so the other day. i blogged on tumblr. but seriously i like it. BUT, i still love you more blogger. so let's just stay together forever and ever okay? love you!

"why do you need a mirror when i can tell you you're beautiful?" CUTE. <3

cheeredup.

'cause. well. the night definitely made up for the day.

walk down memory lane.

today: wasn't that great. the end.

i want to switch to tumblr. i really do. but i couldn't possibly leave behind all my past blogs. i just couldn't do it. :/ which reminds me. as i was trying [keyword: trying] to export my blog to tumblr. i got to reading some of my old blogs. reminiscing you know? my first blog on blogspot was this: "happy birthday to me. :D" and i love how i used to post up my icons from soompi. and songs of the day. and videos. and all those things. and this was. 2008. when i was still in confirmation. oh ouch, december8. i still think doug is the nicest guy ever. :) hi douggggie! oh. and december 2008 was san francisco. and when me and david were watching beethoven virus. teehee! and we got married phase. i loved that. :) december12: the first time i watched the guys play tennis i think. and they completely amazed me. and i blogged about how i loved the girls at the lunchtable. i still do! it kinda makes me sad because i feel like we've drifted since i blogged that blog. we gotta have a reconnect lunch time. when all the guys leave and we tell each other secrets. :) december17: fun stuff and not fun stuff. i miss viethoang. :( the not fun stuff i blogged about was the PLAGUE. wow man, that's. old school shtuff. and the next time i blogged i blogged about breakfast guy. OMG I JUST REMEMBERED WHO HE WAS. freaky. o_o december25: christmas. *heart* nghia si party. i will NEVER ever forget that party. ever. so many tears. but it was a very enlightening night. yes it was. and the first ever lunchtable crew party. who could possible forget that? and thene the end of 2008 came. and then it went. what a. year. i don't really feel like . rereading all of my 2009 blogs there are so many. but skimming through. a lot has happened. so many people have changed. the part around june 09 makes me sad. to think about. no no no. it makes me. feel funky. i miss those guys.

yesterday. i spent an hour listening to epik high. that's all i listened to. for one whole hour. it was absolutely amazing. which reminds me. tablo got married today. more epik high tonight? see you there.

i said some insightful things in my old blogs. but one thing that's always stuck is "it's not what if. it's what now."

sand. in. my. pants. :(

so yesterday, aside from the sand in my pants and the kink in my shoulder that's scaring me cause of ms. rumble's hurt shoulder and now i'm scared i have a super hurt shoulder, yes aside from all that. yesterday was an amazingly beautiful day. (:

early morning. woke up at five thirty to get ready for keyclub surfrider beach clean up. there was SO MANY kids there. and we were freaking out 'cause there might not have been enough rides. victor came cause he was back from ucr for the weekend so that was an extra ride, hahah! (: i went with victor, SHOTGUN, jimmy, vaughn, and kevin (michelle's little brother). victor's a pretty good driver, oh except when he's swerving all over the place cause it's funny when i'm about to pee my pants and when he's blasting taylor swift with all the window's down and waving at little old white ladies who get scared cause he's a creeper. stopped at famima. for the first time. it's like...711 except expensiver. :o they had CARROT cake but i didn't buy any. drove all the way to PCH. it was so prettttty! and cold. but not THAT cold. except when i dipped my feet in it was COLD. and neil was like laying in the water. he's going to get SO SICK. but other than that it was pretty fun. (: played. "this is so fun" which was hard cause i always laugh! :( and huggiebears? where everyone got hurt. hugging each other. "WHAT IS TWO TIMES THE COSINE OF NINETY DEGREES?!" and then ninja. and other stuff. tuan lost his phone which was like. tears forever. tiredtiredtired feet. drove back. and we got michelle into the car. :) that was fun!

back to school. walked around for like an hour. stalked mr. brunner. and then when mr. brunner finally let us in for the ap physics session. i told him MR BRUNNER I HAVE A PRESENT FOR YOU. mr brunner looks at victor. face: WTF? hahahhaha. so funny. i love mr. brunner. *heart* we studied mirrors and lens which was easy. when he put up the equation for magnification apparently the equation said dildo. cause it was di/do. o_o everyone laughed. but i was like wtf? I DO NOT UNDERSTAND. then. mr. brunner laughed at me cause i didn't get it. :(

after apphysics, me and teresa went to david's house cause i had an hour to kill before my parents could pick me up cause they went to church. me teresa david and alex walked to taco bell. FRUTISTA FREEEEZE. then me and teresa went back to school cause she was getting picked up there and i'm a good friend so i waited with her. victor and andrew were playing tennis which brought back like five hundred bajillion memories! except oh yeah they were also playing with this old guy tooo. i think old guys are so funnnny! (: around five i went homeee. i was so tired. my feet hurt so bad! there was sand in my hair thanks to kevin :( and now i have this weird kink in my shoulder that i KNOW IS NOT SUPPOSED TO BE THERE. ughhh!

right now, working on my socratic seminar. :( sadnesss. when i finish i'm goingto michael's to get a yellow teeshirt so i can be wanda (: even though i have work, i am still chipperdippper. ermmm, i'm still trying to figure out how to import my blogs from this blog to tumblr. but if i can't then i won't switch. if i can then i'll switch. okay, back to work! bye bye bye! :)

complete exhuastion.

i don't know if this exhaustion is the cumulation of the past month and a half of being completely busy or if it's because kelly might have given me the flu. but i am seriously exhausted today. i feel like i'm about to pass out. this past month and a half i've completely let myself be distracted with abstinence, keyclub, orchestra, school, thieunhi, bible. so many things. thank GOODNESS i kept my grades up. right now i'm hitting up a 4.2 GPA. but hopefully by the end of the semester i can bump up my apphysics grade to an A and have straight a's. 4.4. here i comeeeeeeee. (: i was really happy when i got my progress report cause i'm doing good. yay life. i'm kinda sad i'm missing thieunhi tomorrow for apphysics. i've skipped two times in a month. but at least i'll be there next week. school first i suppose. i'll be back next week! :) yeeeeboy. anyways. let's hope a long night's sleep will take away the exhaustion so i have the maximum amount of fun tomorrow at the keyclub beach cleanup. AT EIGHT IN THE MORNING. & at the apphysics session. i'm going to kill alex. (: ohyeah. happy birthday peter! i remembered.


okay i was just on the keyclub website. and some kiwins person spammed our chatbox with join kiwins and f**k keyclub. ARE YOU. KIDDING ME. this is freaking ridiculous. i do'nt understand. i do not understand. i am completely. angry. about this. this is. downright. RUDE. and obnoxious. and uncalled for. you can bash us all you want. but don't come to OUR website and start bashing us. it's just not right. GO AWAY. just go away. :(
oh boy oh boy. the room is starting to spin. *breathes* okay i'm okay now. i should take better care of myself. :/ this morning i woke up thirty minutes later. i've must have been really tired. which doesn't make sense because i sleep early. must be the exhaustion of everything. blahhhhhhhhhhh. i have so much work to do this weekend. sigh.

oh yeah. congrats to our football team. they beat LOS AMIGOS. man. we've been winning more and more games. it's so amazing. i'm amazed! it must be the new coach. i think it's mr choate? idkkk , but man. bring the pride to LQ. :DDDD

the last thing i want to say is: i miss freshmen year a little bit.

here it goes again.

this morning. i saw a star and i made a wish that you would remember. then the star moved. turns out it was a helicopter. oh pooo. :(

other than my whole star wishing fail. today was a really good day. thank goodness. keyclub meeting went really well. i like having people shove money in my direction. i could have walked out with like a hundred bucks. but i DIDN'T. because i'm a good girl! :) this weekend is public works so i'm super excited. (: yumyumyum. i got 133/131 for my homework packet for history. which is like. YES. and i understood ap physics today which is a double YES and subs came out for you're beautiful which is TRIPLE YES. except minus a half cause i saw the kissing scene between uee and jgs and i was like :o :o :o nooooooooo! so TWO AND  A HALF YES. plus another half 'cause ms. rumble came back so yeah TRIPLE YES. :) intro was so funnny today. kelly missed out cause she was taking her ap chem test. but we talked about the creeper substitute from yesterday. period six, we're the best! her special angels. :) i do not know why but my printer is not printer.bummmmmer. :(

last night, went to the lqve & drama concert. it was so BEAUTIFUL. :') good job kathy tay kevin chris peter quincy sonny and brandon. and all those other peoples. :) it was so good. especially ESPECIALLY the last song where hensley let all the lqve alumni come up and take their old spots and sing. I GOT SO NOSTALGIC! i saw guillermo! and vincent! *hugs* and i saw andrew. and josie. and john. and everyone. it was like. *tears forever* it made me and maria very sad in a happy way. cause we were thinking about when WE'LL be seniors. that's going to be so weird. NO i will not think about that now. *tears* but yeah. LQVE, AMAZINGNESSS. *heart* :) drama was prettttty funny. especially genaviv [sp?] she was FREAKING HILARIOUS. but that one girl with the pink hair was so stupid. i can't believe she said what she said in front of hensley. what a dumb bunny.plus. she wasn't funny at all. oh yeah i saw garrett! but i forgot to say hi. :/ oh welllll. over all. great night with maria and michelle. [MEAN TO ME!] goood stuff. (:

i realllllly enjoy that short walk from the parking lot to my locker in the morning. because it's zero period. there's no one there. and it's just a really good five minutes to myself. because for the rest of the day there's just people everywhere. hustle and bustle. and that five precious minutes i have to myself walking. i love it. which is why i think i do'nt hate zero. i would not be happy if i lost my precious five minutes alone in the morning looking at the sunrise. school is kinda pretty without so many people running around everywhere. it's quiet in a beautiful way. 

just finished my homework. mom's making dinner and it smells sososo yummy. (: just looked. she's making kungpao chicken. nyomnyomnyom. (: an airplane just flew over my house. SO LOUD. i thought it was a ufo. so freaky deeeky. it's almost time for dinner. hacking starving. kungpao chicken came out SO SO GOOOOD. (: bye friends. (:

the end is such a scary place to start. everything is torn apart. and i don't know where to go from here. in the end. there's no reason to pretend. i know you won't be back again. i gotta find a way from here. i don't know where i'll fall down. but i'm sure to hit the ground. 'cause it's not over til it's over. every ending's a new beginning. one more chance to get it right. one more chance to get it wrong. it's not over til it's over. sometime's nowhere leads to somewhere. and it all starts again. in the end, and it's such a scary place to be. everything is in between. and i do'nt know where to go from here. in the end i see it's all up to me. to figure out where i should be. i'm gonna find a way from here. in the end.

thank you jason reeves. (:

just another latestart.

happy latestart. (: today i ate breakfast with davidnguyyyy like i do every latestart. (: and me and him and chris listened to i'm yours. yay! and all these other songs. on chris' loudbutt speakers. and trance music which was funny. today, was easy. we had an abstinence club meeting. i am working on the website/facebook as we speak! (: errrm, not much homework, just apphysics. my grade is slowly climbing back up. yay. uhhhm, tonigh is the fall choir/drama concert. i'm going! with maria & kevin. yay. support lqve. (: errrrm, my concert is next wednesday. i think i might be dorothy if huong lets me borrow her costume. otherwise. BACKUP is my thieunhi uniform. ;) andddddd, emily wants to wear footsie pajamas but i REFUSEE. :) uhmm uhmm uhmm. i forgot. what i was going to say. oh yeah, something big went down yesterday or something cause a lot of asb people were gone. :o me and maria speculated but who knows. i'm excited. cause you're beautiful aired so subs should come out soon. yay life. i kinda have the gist [is that how you spell it] of my business letter outlined. i just need to figure out...how to write a business letter. :( tears for me! :) today i had fun in apphysics. except when alex and bryan made fun of me for mixing up sc [starcraft] with cs [counterstrike]....what a bunch of BULLLLIES. :( uhm. blahblahblah. last night i baked all these strawberry pastries that came out pretty good. i'm proud of myself. :) oh yeah. last night i rewatched wild bunny episodes cause i miss jayyyyyyyyy. :( he was the PERFECT leader for twopm. geebus jyp. you made a stupid move! :( oh yeah. tumblr. I REFUSE TO USE IT. as much as i am really liking the format...I WILL NOT ABANDON MY LITTLE BLOGSPOT. sometimes i feel like. i should be able to blog more openly with this blog. maybe i'm scared to cause i know people read this thing. okay okay. i will make a vow right now....ugh.

i, jessica d nguyen. vow to openly blog to my heart's consent on this blog. without worrying about who reads this. and how they interpret it. signed, jessicadnguyen.

i did it. i will now openly blog. yeah right. NO I TAKE THAT BACK. i will! i will. it'll just take time. i refuse to delete anything i say. even though i know i might regret it.

i miss kathy. i feel like even though i see her every day. i haven't really talked to her. even though she's right there. okay i make a vow to REALLLYREALLLY talk to her tomorrow. NO. tonight! when i see her. I'M SUPPORTING HER AT HER CONCERT. like the good friend i am. i really miss her. 'cause i haven't even caught up with her on anything yet. no updates nothing. i feel lost. and sorry. is this what high school does?

so i think i have this schoolgirl crush on this guy. oh no, kelly he isn't universally cute. at all. :) but he's just one of those guys in your classes that you enjoy fighting with all the time. even though you're not really fighting. and you know you're not really fighting cause you're both laughing. it's just fun. i wish life was always this simple.

i feel like. it always happens on days like these. i push i push and i push you away. and then months fly by. and. the little birdy flies back. i can't decide if i'm happy that i'm in the back of your mind. of if i'm angry that you're always in the back of mine.

sometimes i think i watch korean dramas because i just want to be that girl.

mystery to me.

i am having a spot of writer's block. i'm trying to write my business letter. to the business club. people. teacher advisors. so that they will consider choosing me to be junior executive. which is a board member position. that makes me president next year. i am having the hardest time. promoting myself. that is quite hard you know? :) and because i'm having writer's block. i've decided...to blog. blog it out yoyoyo. last few days. choc walk was superfun. (: yayyyy! dennys was fun. brandon eats like a monster! errrrrm, i listened to mblaq and beast. finally. SO GOOD. SO DAMN GOOD. and...*drools at chocolate abs* and aj's smile. (: andddddddd. i started watching. autumn's concerto. with vanness wu. he's...cute...and OLD. but not old looking. but i'm reminded that he. is old. because. he's old. but he's cute. in a not old looking way. WEIRD. andd. i read on yahoo. that BALLOON FLYING AWAY WITH THE BOY was a SCAM. what a messed up father. i'd punch him in the face! and. also. last night i watched the PROPOSAL. and that was freaking awesome cause i freaking LOVE ryanreynolds. *heart* he's so cuteeeeeeee! and the movie was so cute. except for the part where they walked into each other naked. i was like. wtf? yeahhhh. i can't stop listening to TTL listen 2. :) it's so gooood. supernova forever in my corazonnnn. teehee! and today. the table decided to go support kevinkathy&tay. at their choir concert tomorrow. except duy won't go unless i pay for him. that little "disk" HAHA, misspelling ftw. arghhh! business letters are HARD. :( oh yeah, and last night i fully watched the first episode of miss no good. which i put off only because rainie yang's voice was so annoying in this one. and she's like. retardo. but DEAN FUJIOKA IS SO DAMN CUTE. like. *faints* cute. i am happy just thinking about him. so i guess his cuteness overpowered rainie's characters. not cuteness. but she ends up with the other guy. wilber pan who is not..so cute. so i'm all sad. because i know that'll happen! but for now. i will just bask in the beautifulness of dean fujioka's beyond cute character. (: hahhaha. fangirling. i haven't really updated my blog daily. cause i really do'nt feel like killing my day by reading emo blogs that some of my friends write. geeebus, we're already in an economic recession! :[ haha, just kidding. sorta. well i just don't feel like being bummed out. so i haven't updated as frequently. or maybe, the real reason. is that i'm just hacking lazy. ;) blahblahblah. i REALLY want to reset my top 25 most played on itunes. but i have no idea how! booooo hooo. :( hmm, today is queen seon deok day cause it's a tuesday remember? :) tuesdaytuesdaytuesday. hmm."once upon a time, i believe it was a tuesday when i caught your eye." ;)

teeeeheeeee, oh the irony, jdn.

closer to heaven.

i want. a love like that.

alone in my little world.

the bright sunlight one afternoon woke me up slowly from sleep. but nothing mattered. the forgotten faces of many have been covered by time where they do belong. as i look around. my shadow stands alone. do you feel lost in your place. no one seems to understand your mind. does anyone care to know what is it that troubles you inside? do you feel lonely in your heart. though everything seems to be right. take a walk with me, away. from everything that makes you cry. the moon that has risen in the midst of darkness brightens the dark night. and nothing mattered. the days which have flowed by disappears into the faint whispers where they do belong. in the midst of the old song of memories. i try to fall asleep. do you feel lost in your place. no one seems to understand your mind. does anyone care to know what is it that troubles you inside? do you feel lonely in your heart. though everything seems to be right. take a walk with me, away. from everything that makes you cry. take a walk with me now. i'll be your friend. take a deep breath of air. to clear your mind. take a walk when you feel low and nothing seems to comfort you inside. [take a walk; clazziquai project.] i've forgotten how long it has been. since i've never agian listened to you telling your beloved fairytale. i've thought of a long time. i start to panic. have i done something wrong? you said to me with eyes full of tears inside the fairytale are all lies. i can't possibly be your prince. maybe you can never understand. that the moment you said i love you. the stars in the sky brightened. i'm will to be that angel you love inside the fairytale. spread up my hands and become the wings to protect you. you must believe. that we can be like that in the fairytale. prosperity and happiness is the ending. let's write our ending together. [tonghua/fairytale.] i was a little girl. alone in my little world. who dreamed of a little home for me. i played pretend between the trees. and fed my houseguests back and leaves. and laughed in my pretty bed of green. i had a dream. that i could fly from the highest swing. i had a dream. long walks in the dark though woods grown behind the park. i asked god who i'm supposed to be. the stars smiled down on me. god answered in silent reverie. i said a prayer and fell asleep. i had a dream. that i could fly from the highest tree. i had a dream. now im old and feeling grey. i don't know what's left to say about htis life i'm willing to leave. i lived it full and i lived it well there's many tales i've lived to tell. i'm ready now. i'm ready now. i'm ready now to fly from the highest wing. i had a dream. [dream; priscilla ahn.] it's in the silences. the words you never say. i see it in your eyes. it always starts the same way. it seems like everyone we know is breaking up. does anybody every stay in love. anymore? i promise you. from the bottom of my heart. i will love you til the death do us part. i promise you as a lover and a friend. i will love you like i never love again. with everything i am. i see you look at me. when you think i'm not aware. you're searching for clue. of just how deep my feelings are. how do you prove the sky is blue the oceans wide? all i know is what i feel when i look into your eyes. i promise you. from the bottom of my heart. i will love you til the death do us part. i promise you as a lover and a friend. i will love you like i never love again. with everything i am. oh there are no guarantees. thats what you always say to me. but late at night. i feel the tremble of your touch. oh what i'm trying to say to you, i never said to anyone i promise. i promise you. from the bottom of my heart. i will love you til death do us part. i do my darling, i promise you. i promise you as a lover and a friend. i will love you like i never love again. with everything i am i promise you. from the bottom of my heart. i promise you. [i promise you; backstreet boys.]

i suddenly got lazy. you know, love save the empty?; jdn.

sixteenth;

birthday recap: saturdaynight hiep and teresa took me to eat for our annual. yay it's jessica's birthday outing. :) hmm, we drove pretty far and then we were coming near and ihop and i was like OMG are we going to ihop?! cool. and they were like YEAH. except we didn't turn into the ihop parking lot. so i was very confused. turns out we ended up at tokyo hibachi. some japanese restaurant. it's a sushi bar. AND one of those places where japanese guys cook in front of you. IT WAS REALLLLLLLY fun. i was like. sitting there. wide eyed. drooling? HAHA, not..really. hiep spent the night making fun of me. and i spent the night making fun of teresa. (: thanks guysss, i had a great time. next year guppies? whootwhoot. sunday: hiep si training day. it was. A WASTE OF SEVEN HOURS OF MY LIFE. but i'm proud to have my poopycolored khanh. (: monday: my actual birthday. thanks to everyone who actually remembered. :) end birthday recap. jessica is now sixteen.

so. haven't blogged in a week. i was going to after my birthday. but i just kept putting it off and off and off. it rained yesterday. i was really excited. BUT TODAY, WAS A REALLY GOOD DAY. i got a SIXXXX on the aplang essay. and aced my calculus quiz. and the spanish test was easy. and yay! and i have an AAAAA in aplang. (: happppyfaces. errrrm, what else? this weekend is chocwalk. still need twentyfivedollars. WOULD ANYONE LIKE TO DONATE? (: i would really appreciate it. ohyeah. i'm so gonna music blog after this. i've spent the last few gloomy days. and rainy day. listening to music. yes duy, tonghua ftw. xD he has a stalker girl! :O andddd, THERE IS A CREEPY GUY AT SCHOOOOL. but i havent seen him the last few days. so maybe he isnt a creeper anymore. lately i've been watching you're beautiful where the guy's are UNBELIEVABLY beautiful. and the story is just so darn funnnny! and ... did i mention the guys are so darn beautiful? i love it i love it i love it. (: HAPPPPPYFACE. kaykaykay, musicblogging. and aplang presentation doing. FOSHO. (:

oh yes, happy anniversary mommy&daddy. (:

oh man, jdn.

sunshyness.

Sometimes you just need to step back and

simplify.

In a world where so much seems to be driven by

flashiness and technology and where so many

things can tend to feel out of your control,

sometimes the solution is to go back to

square-one, re-evaluate and reinvent.

-orba squara.

back to the glory days.

once upon a time. i believe it was a tuesday when i caught your eye. we caught onto something. i hold onto the night. you looked me in the eye and told me you loved me. were you just kidding? cause it seems to me. this thing is breaking down. we almost never speak. i don't feel welcome anymore. baby what happened? please tell me. cause one second it was perfect and now you're half way out the door. and i stare at the phone. and he still hasn't called. and you feel so low you can't feel nothing at all. and you flash back to when he said forever and always. and it rains in your bedroom, everything is wrong. it rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone. cause i was there when you said. forever and always. was i out of line. did i say something way too honest. that made you run and hide? like a scared little boy. i looked into your eyes; thought i knew you for a minute. now i'm not so sure. so here's to everything coming down to nothing. here's to silence that cuts me to the core. where is this going? thought i knew for a minute but i don't anymore. [forever and always; taylor swift.] there's a hole in your logic. you who know all the answers. you claim science ain't magic. and expect me to buy it. and goodbye mr. a. you promised you would love us but you knew too much. goodbye mr. a. but no human touch. if life is subtraction. your number is up. your love i a fraction. it's not adding up. so busy showing me where i'm wrong. you forgot to switch your feelings on. so so superior. and you not. you love a little bit. but you forgot. goodbye mr. a. the world was full of wonder til you opened my eyes. wish you hadn't blown my mind and killed the surprise. you promised you would love but you knew too much. goodbye mr. a. you had all the answers. but no human touch. if life is subtraction your number is up. youre love is a fraction. it's not adding up. [goodbye mr. a.; the hoosiers.] my mind's playing up. again. someone's there. the room is getting colder now. the light swings again. and i'm scared. 'cause someone's there. stop messing with my mind 'cause now i'm. trapped in your world. where you're burning in my eyes. you're like a shadow that never hides. i'm stuck in parallel worlds. something supernatural. it won't let me go. it paranormal. and no one believes. i'm stuck against the wall. i can't make a move. my heart beat stops. i'm scared of this time 'cause i can't make a line. say once again it just proves to be difficult. i'm feeling nervous but its nothing that i cannot do. i'm stuck in a dimension where its hard to breath. and its still true. i'm losing my mind. im falling. someone help me. what can i do? [parallel worlds; elliot minor.] anne boleyn she kept a tin. which all her hopes and dreams were in. she plans to run away with him forever, never to be seen again. leaves a note and starts to choke. can feel the lump that's in her throat. its raining and she leaves her coat in silence. we're sorry. but we disagree. the boy is vermins cant you see? we'll drown his sins in misery and rip him out of history. people marching to the drums. everybody's having fun to the sound of love. ugly is the world we're on. if i'm right then prove me wrong. i'm stunned. to find a place we belong. who is your lover? i couldn't tell when hell freezes over thats when i'll tell. who is you're lover. i couldnt tell, when will this stop. racing pacing in the dark. she's searching for a lonely heart. she finds him but his heart has stopped. she breaks down. we're sorry, but your majesty. refusing orders from the queen. has upset her monstrosity. remembers a voice and hears him sing. people marching to the drums. everybody's having fun to the sound of love. ugly is the world we're on. if i'm right then prove me wrong. i'm stunned. to find a place we belong. [transylvania: mcfly.] okay, i'm off to eat dinner! and watch the kdrama story of a man WHICH IS SO GOOOOD. *drools* ohyeah, and clubrush soon. join keyclub, abstinence, and bridgessssss. (:

on that note, jdn.

one hit wonders.

goodbye mr. a.

so weekend recap. fridaynight: choir was boring as always. daddy left for the ht cap 3 camp. at night. watched this crazy dateline episode about albinos and how they're being hunted by african tribes because the tribes believe that they have super powers in their limbs. gross. and get this. got advice from the one and only duy hoang about boys. and duy was pretty helpful. except when he was saying things like "get off your high horse and just make babies." and things like "just im him and say hey you sexy fox. that's not creepy at all!" that little psycho. also talked to maria who i must remind to take her meds. GRRRR. i hope she gets better. geeeeebus. uhm. yeah. slept early cause i had keyclub early on satuday. (-_-). you'll understand that face when i get to saturday: WOKE UP AT 530AM. so i could get ready for keyclub. oh wait. i check my aim and i find out the event is hacking cancelled. I HATE THAT. when they cancel. like. at 12 o clock at night when everyone is asleep. that pissed me off so bad. ughhh. around 1245 when to church helped out for bible class. yeah now that i found out more about dominique he really does creep me out. in an old creepy old man way. david's cool. apparentely he just graduated? from LQ?! idk how that works. or maybe it was the year before. maybe i just never saw him! interestingggg. then i had to skip thieunhi and thieunhimass for this stupid. disaster training thing for bible class. waste of two hours. learned how to duck and cover. wowww. :) sunday: KAYAKING WITH THE THIEUNHIKIDSSSS. it was so fun. and so tiring. i partnered with lany. oh yeah, dustin is such a player. ;) hahahhahahh! man after we kayaked. food never tasted so good i was SO HUNGRY. but it was SOSOSOSO coooold! and im definitely getting sick. i'm already feeling dizzy. and i have a nassaly. ajsoidfjaod. thing. so im sick more than likely. whoa, the room is spinning. that's crazy. okay im done with my weekend recap. i will now go music song blog because i feel the need too. goodbyeeee.

publish post, jdn.

unbelievable.

this has to be the busiest weekend of my entire life.
saturday:
530-630: wake up, breakfast. shower. get ready.
630-1100: key club: walk with me at santa ana zoo.
1100:1245: lunch. shower again. get ready.
1245-230: ta for bible class.
230-300: turn in thieu nhi stuff. kinda take a break.
300-500: bible class disaster training. ughhh
. 500-530: chill by myself until church.
530-630: church. with father kennedy. greattttt.
630: can i please go home and eat?! and then. KNOCK OUT. or do some homework.

sunday:
all day: kayaking.
night: homework until i die


i feel really bad for making my mom take care of me like this. ughhh, but even though this weekend is super busy. i think it'll be super fun. wish me luck. this is where my time management skills must shine. AJA. FIGHTING. also, maria. i'm super praying for you because i love you.

sincerely yours, jdn

optimus. vs. megatron.

i'm a pawn in your game. & this is checkmate.

today i have like no homework. so today is my rest day thank goodness. god knows i need it. i'm so tireddddd. oh yeah, and happy october. fall is here, it was super cold this morning, i loved it. today was good. the apcalc test wasn't that bad. so i'm happy about how it went. uhmm, i have one thing to angry rant about. kelly and kathy know about it already. cause they were at school. MARIA, i missed you, get better soon. anyways. angry rant: i hate that you always think you're the better person in every single situation. lately you've been making me so angry with your hypocritical ways. i have that you always think that i'm wrong. that you're always "disappointed" in me. i was right to yell at you today. you know why? because for once, someone needs to set you in your place. you are not god. you are not some highly prince that we must all bow down to. i think in your life, people have put you on such a high pedistal, you've forgetten that the world doesn't revolve around you. you know what? i'm glad i yelled at you because i know you were surprised that someone so lowly would speak to you that way. you deserved it. period. get a grip on your own life. geez. okay done. other than that. great day. oh yeah, formspring answers are up. that thing is really interesting dudeeee. uhmuhm, i'm listening to backstreet boys. ahora. me gusta mucho. thank goodness tomorrow is friday. this week went by a lot faster than last week for sure. kayaking this sunday. & key club at santa ana zoo this saturday. excited ftw. :) still waiting for the 3.1 jailbreak. *tears* live fast by pensive is such a good song. so last night, aim went like. super beserk. and it was super retardo. today, i sat and stared at those darn dogs for like twenty minutes. so maybe i wont be so scared. the lighter one has a HUGE WEENEEE. wtf, it's so gross. i wanna chop it off. nasty. :( i'm still scared of them. they look too much like humans. and they have CLAWS. i will die. :( i like the names me and kelly gave the dogs. BWAHAHA. i love kelly. :) oh yeah last night was back to school night! which was why i missed my queen seon deok episode. :( but anyways, it was super fun hanging out with emilybuiiii and teresa. we were so retarded. :) and FREAKING alan bui. can die. :( grosssssssssssss. and i saw huong's brother huy. and he dragged me by the arm into greek's class and then he lectured me about getting good grades. it kinda pissed me off in a very funny way. THIS IS WHY YOU DO NOT SAY HI TO SMART PEOPLE WHEN YOU SEE THEM AT YOUR SCHOOL. they drag you into greek's class and then they have smart conversations with greek that you do not comprehend and you can't leave because smart person glares at you when you try to sneak away. T-T tears. but other than that. the night was very fun. filled. with food. and money begging. and. GETTING SICK . yes emily got me sick. tears forever. but i'm okay. I WILL BE FINE. except my face is kinda heating up. ugh. but i'm okay. :) there's this new ping app that i'm gonna go try out now. bye friendlies.


live fast, jdn.

magical answer machine answers. 01.

I'M MAD AT YOU.
ehh, you know you love me lany. :)
I MISS YOU JESSICA. :[
uhmm,i miss you too! actually, whoever you are. i probably do miss you. :)
hello:
hi. WHO ARE YOU?! :o
do you know who this is?
master yoda. :)
YES OR NO?
YES MAN.
KIM JONG IL OR MAO ZE DONG?
you sound like the lunch table boys. :o NEITHER. they're grosssss. :(
do you remember me?
maybe...
WTF IS THIS?
a magical answering machine. :o
backstreet boys or NYSYNC?
backstreet boys ftw. :)
why was it so hot today? :(
because i was here. HAHAHA, man, what a duy answer.
do you love me?
YES.

magical answering machine. :)

magical answering machine.

http://www.formspring.com/forms/?716957-6BZW4P8JXd

it's a magical answering machine where you ask questions. and i answer them.
lany gave it to me. (:
i'll post the answers on blogpot.
still tears forevering. :(

long story short.

my family got an effing dog. and now i'm effing scared for my life.




tears forever. :(

300.

high. five. friend.

HAPPY THREEHUNDREDTH BLOG POST MY LITTLE BLOGSPOT. can you believe it?! i can't! how exciting. bwahahah. today was a good hot diggity dog day. i finished my homework. aplang done. apphysics done. studying for apcalc done. spanish done. in about an hour i'm going to back to school night to help out music dpt. whootwhoot. today is just good in general. and it was also LATE START and kathy bought me starbucks. so i love her forevahhh. uhm. and today was just good. last night stayed up til 11:11. me and kelly had a fun conversation. me and her talk a lot in aplang. and intro. bwahahah! intro to business is so so so funny. michael, our resident sophy. is very. much a little boy. it's so funny. and sour patch kids have faces! :o did you KNOW THAT?! i didn't. it was cool. and they are veryyyy sour. *squishy sour face.* hehehe! our song by taylor swift is so darn adorable. you know what i mean? i know what i mean. teehee. OMG. my miracle JUST HAPPENED. on my three hundredth blog post day. how amazing is that?! it is freaking AMAZING. :) amazinggggg. i love it. collide by howie day is a really cute song. :) seriously. probably favorite song of all time. every since i heard hieu sing it. at camp for realios. well anyways. i have to go spazz with kelly now. and even though it's a very short blog for my threehundredth blog...I'M VERY HAPPPPPPPPY. do the happy dance children. that's right. (:

happyboysandgirls, jdn.

invincible transformer.

100 ways of living.

hello there. today was a darn good day. i thought i was going to be overwhelmed with homework. but when it came down to finishing it. i finished around 430PM. and now i'm blogging. after i blog i think i'll work on the aplang paper that's due thursday. yay me. i'm proud of myself for being able to manage my time okay. and i'm dealing with the stress okay too. yay. me. today, had a board meeting for abstinence club. i almost feel like some of the board member find this as a joke. at one point, i kinda wanted to say. this isn't a funny issue, but whatever. i'll do what i can for the club. yay abstinence. i went on a bike ride before dinner to the park in my neighborhood. and then i sat on the swings for a bit. the sun was going down a bit. it felt good. i had a lot of time to think, it felt great. just sat there. and thought. you know, it's so much easier to think when it's quiet. and no one is around to bother you. and there's no pile of homework to stress you out. and i just sat there with me and my thoughts alone. no one to bother me. nothing. it was. amazing. dotdotdot. came home. just had dinner. making strawberrybanana smoothies. and waiting for queen seon deok to come on, geebus! okay, now something just came to mind for me to angry rant. i hate that people think that i have no life and will always be there to do the dirty work they need me to do. i do have a life. i have things to do. i don't have time to make your stupid elementary school election posters. i don't have time to write down the homework for of your stupid classes. i don't have time to think about you and you and you sometimes. i need to think about myself. all this work people make me do is stressing me out. take care of yourselves for once. i can't be there for you every step of the way. angry rant, done. sorry. just all this stress that i'm kinda having to deal with along with all the crud people expect me to do for them is driving me crazy. OKAY, this strawberrybanana smoothie. is DELISHHHH. i love it. yummmmmy. teehee! OHEMGEE. queen seon deok is on! yay me. oh yeah, so after the board meeting i was waiting for my mom with neil and neil tried to record me saying incriminating thing. geebus neil. :( right now i am: watching queen seon deok. uci web reading. scholarship searching. and talking to my gossip girl lover peter. hahaha! :) peter's made a new record of not making fun of me. yay me! queen seon deok is getting so intene. mangggg. okay i'm going to concentrate on my super addiction with queen seon deok. blog later maybe. :)

vitas luuuu babyyyy, jdn.

hello seattle.

miracles happen when you create your own chances.

happy j what time is it now sky banner day. :) at 2PM in seattle today, a sky banner flew by for leader jay from the fans. yay! today i was piled with work to do. but thanks to my amazing time management skills, i only need to finish my history cover and abstinence club posters. yay me. listening to the leaders by gdragon ft cl & teddy. i never get tired of that song. for realios. okay, going to work on stuff for a bit, will be back to blogging soon. :) okay, i'm back. i shall quickly blog before i sleep. uhmm,i finished all of my work at EXACTLY eight o clock. how weird is that. :) uhm, i was gonna super angry rant. and i knew i would cool down by now. which is why i wrote myself a note to angry rant. dude, who the ASDJFIOADSJ do you think you are? you're not my mom. let me think. WHAT RIGHT do you have to make me feel guilty? get over it. geez. why do YOU get to make me feel bad jut because i can't do what you want me to do. i have my own life to live. i can't be worrying about how you feel about my actions every step of the way. dammit, just stop. stop making me feel bad just because i don't feel certain thing that you expect from me. you're not the center of the universe. you're really pissing me off. okay, done. half of that was one person and then it suddenly deviated to another person. so it's kinda of two peoples. :) i'm okay now. i'm so glad i finished all my work. at target i bought my first set of 50 CRAYOLA SUPERTIP MARKERS. i think that's what they're called. hehehe! i'm so excited. i'm gonna have so much fun with them! anyways, i'm very tired. and i think i'll blog tomorrow because i'm beat from working all day. yay me you guys. yay me. i hope the chance i created makes my miracle happen.you know? cause that'd be awesome. have a great night you guys, get some sleep i worry.

we. are the leaders, jdn.

fall, how i've missed you so.

oh love. what a silly game we play.

hello there. it's sunday night. end of the weekend. start of a new week. where i will be longing for the weekend once again. this sunday is kayaking with the thieunhi kids. hooray. right now, i am secret santa shopping. shh! it's a secret! i'm shopping. and i'm just kinda sitting here. i'm 'kinda hoping for some sort of freak miracle to happen. god knows i should've learned by now not to believe in those kind of miracles. but it never stops me from secretly wishing in the back of my brain. tsktsk jessica. when will you learn? i'm loving that the weather is getting. less hot. hopefully. i missed fall. my favorite season. the season when the leaves change. and people change. or can change. and it's the season when i can wear my sweaters and scarves. that's definitely a plus! oh my gosh you guys! you know that talking japanese watch i've been eyeing on fredflare.com? it's down to fifteen dollars! yay! now if it'll just go down a bit more so that the shipping price won't matter as much. how much is shipping anyways. i'm thinking, six dollars. not even. seven ninetyfive! darn, i guess i'll just have to wait a bit longer. i've never had a problem with waiting for sales. my mom taught me well! gasp, and the risky business sunglasses are down to two ninety nine. wowzers. we believe by good charlotte is a really good song. a lot of people shy away from good charlotte cause joel madden looks like a scary dude, which. i guess he really does. but their music is really thoughtful, at least i think so. we believe is a really good song cause the words are very. meaningful, especially in this time when a lot of us have lost hope. right? right. oh yeah, kelly's all better and she's going to be at school tomorrow, i'm glad. i was very worried! i remember one time when everyone at the table got sick one after another. it was an awful cycle cause once one person was cured another person got sick and the cured person got resick. our table is so small that's why. we breathe too much of each other's air. gross! but it's funnier now that i think about it. right now. i feel like i have a lot to say. but i don't know what it is exactly. i don't want to convince myself about something that could be nothing. right? right. i just want school to start. so i can distract myself over and over again. that's one of the plusses of school! yay. i can't wait for mock trial to start. i wanted to join freshman year but they didn't have it. so this year, i'm going to do my best and be all law and order status. yeahhh! come watch me yeah? it'll be super embarassing, but i think i'll have a lot of fun because i'm so into all that criminal stuff. yay mock trial! club rush is this week, yay keyclub. i don' t care if everyone joins kiwins, i think key club is the best place for me. and i'm sticking with that. i can't really blog about my secret santa because it's a secret. but. it's kinda hard shopping. i really want to get a good present. i'm going to have a hard time keeping the secret until christmas. but surprisingly, none of us have talked about secret santa much. i think all of us have been really stressed with school and life. we just kind of forgot about each other a little. i hope christmas is a good time for us all to rekindle our friendships. school is a hassle sometimes. and i feel like, even though we're all togehter. sometimes, it feels very. small talky. right? right, a little. fly boy by crown j makes me want to dance and say fly boy all day. yesssireeebob. next next week is hiep si training, and hiep's taking me out to eat for my birthday, like he does every year. yeahhh, it's going to be my birthday in about two weeks. will anyone remember? i wonder. i've learned not to have high expectations for my birthday anymore. i'm just glad i have my friends. even though it's my sixteenth birthday. and everyone expects something big for the sweet sixteen. honestly, i just feel like eating out with my family. and then with my close friends. i don't really feel the need to have some huge extravaganza. it doesn't feel that special. if you ask me. it just seems like a hassle. and very. not intimate. right? right. pop princess by the click five reminds me of full house. i think it's cause they also sang i think we're alone now and there was that one episode where joey sings that song. i loved that episode! man, those were the good ol' days. tomorrow's the big day, with the sky banner going down. i'm excited, for no reason. well, how can i not be excited? manggg.right now it is 702PM. and in the process of shopping for my secret santa, i've found a garbajillionmajigillian things that i would love to buy. geebus! light up the sky by yellowcard. man, paper walls was SUCH a good album. SUCH a goooood album. i absolutely loved it. i remember it 'cause john "got" it for me. i was absolutely thrilled when he gave it to me. i couldn't contain myself. when i got home i ran right to the cd player and popped it in and spent the rest of the night listening to it, it was a saturday. that's how clearly i remember it. thanks john! okay, i give up on secret santa shopping for now. i'm too busy looking through the new topshop portfolios. gosh, they're gorgeous. if only i could win the lottery. or it would start raining money. like in the pandora's box episode of big brother. that was so funny. sucker, that's what you get for being greedy! oh yeah, i'm getting my turquoise keyclub american apparel jacket soon! yay, i'll now match with a bajillion other kids at school. hoorah! i love it! oh man, fifteen dollar romper on topshop.com! if only shipping wasn't FIFTEEN MORE DOLLARS?! WHAT. darn you topshop. why must you be hqed in the UK?! *sigh* at least i have some far east movement to cheer me up. round and round is such a let's go dance song. right michael? right. oh yeah, this afternoon michael called me but i didn't know. and i picked up the phone. first think i hear is this sound: "MEEEEEYOWWWWW!" i really wanted to hang up. for realios. why must i be friends with such strange people?! well, that's life. i love them to bits. i guess...right? right! time for me to go sleep, because i'm so tired. right? RIGHT.

driving slow through the snow, jdn.