fly ie ie ie. :D

i really hate being sick. cold sweats suck

but retreat was fun fun fun. UNDERSTANDING. WHOOOOT. heartheartheart. derick is so FUNNY. so funny it's ridiculous. duy [junior leader] is cooool. he helped me with my bracelet. hehe, VIET. lol lol lol. GIVE IT BACK. GIVE IT BACK! YOU TOOK MY BREATH AWAY! lol lol, douglas. HOW ARE YOU FEELING REVERENCE. *silence* fun fun fun. eating food is fun.

sickness is NOT fun. and impending homework DOOM isn't either.
BUT THE OTHER BOLEYN GIRL. IS GREAT! so addicting. :D DON'T JUDGE ME.

one way, jesus. <3

water to my soul. love that makes me whole. apart from you i'm lost. your mercy is so deep. your sacrifice complete. apart from you i'm lost. looking back on all those times. i should have known how you stood there right beside me. all my wrongs you have atoned. you wiped away my tears. i'm not alone. praise and glory to your name. you will always bet he same. let all know you are holy. i'll remain in you. and you remain in me. i'm not. you are the morning star. let my life now show. that your mercy overflows in me. looking back on all those times. i could see you now stood there right beside me. all my suffering my shame. you made them all your own for me, you came. there is no one else but you that i desire. cause i've been the glory of your sacrifice. i will offer you my everything. my heart and all my soul. i trust in you alone. ; tim. morningstar.

MorningStar - Tim

hi hi hi!

hi douglas who remembered my blog URL the first time he visited it.
hi neil who loves the wonder girls and hates snsd. D:
hi maria, you better have gotten me something at disneyland. :D
hi kelly. *barfs and gets hit in face by basketball*
hi kathy, let's ditch kelly. ;D
hi andrew, ARE YOU SERIOUS?! :D

heartheartheart.

>:D

one meeting is chance. two is fate.
boy, why do you make me feel this way.

go jessica.

happy late valentine's day.
because i need to work harder. and i feel like changing. i will be off the computer on weekdays until march 09.
it is my goal of the month. slash sacrafice.
i've been keeping a journal. maybe i'll let you read it, not. :D

+soompi radio club & dj k & my new journal are the only things keeping me sane right now.
whoooooooooooooooot! :D and hanging out with tlc all day was fun. thang2 is a canadian terrorist!

fresh start.

i got new shoes last night! whooooooooooot! & thanks for the surprises boys. :D deejay k all night! well it's the start of friday. and i'm eating a quesadilla. let's see how the day rolls out.

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today was a clean out the trash day. i cleaned my room. i cleaned the house. and i deleted you(s) of my buddy list. i'm ready for a fresh start. i think it's time everyone had a fresh start.

dj k! dj k! dj k!

happyhappyhappy! so let's start with yesterday. thanks jp for the cupcake. sooo soompi radio club is the BEST! DJ K DJ K DJ K! heartheartheart. haha, he said my name on the station last night and i was like freaking out because that is so freaking cool! and he played my request! and wished me good luck on apeuro. and the "i'm going to play two ftisland songs now. so if you do'nt like ftisland. go get a drink of water or something. okay i'm going to go get a drink of water now." whoooooot, deejay k! he's the best dj i think. cause the others are okay~ bwahahhahah! soompi radio club is my new thingggg. today was so funnnnnnny! i got a flower from my future husband who used kelly as a messenger right kelly? bwahahha, and kenny! tried to look disgusted at my flower and ended up WINKING AT ME! and then mrhobbs winked at kenny all weirdo. it was so FUNNY. and after school was fun. i was serenading people in korean. :D and i come homeeee. and now i'm listening to the new ft island mini album, jump up. with that new member what's his face. [I KNOW YOU'RE INTERESTED KELLY!] and it's actuallly good. i miss wonbin's rapping. and i don't see anything new with the new membre so we'll see. but the song i'm listening now, missing you. is really good. especially cause i like orchestra music.bad woman is whatever. i mean not amazing. and plus hongki's hair was NASTY. meeeeep. i'm going to go be cool now. & listen to soompiradioclub! no deejay k yet, D: booo! i'm going shopping & library tonight. and then going out tomorrow night maybe. OKAY, i hear the new guys voice in the song magic. eh, he's alright. the song is too un teen angsty for an ft island song! XD SOOMPIRADIOCLUB. + DJK! whooooooooooooooooooooooooot.

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i just found out; rip auntie phuong. i'm sure i'll see you in heaven. you lived a great life. we'll miss you.

out of the loop.

okay so, i have officially decided. you are a freaking waste of time. and i'm tired of bothering. you are a waste of my breath oughts mymy th tears my hard work. you are not worth my time. you don't deserve me. you don't know. you don't care. and you are a freaking waste of my time and effort.. i'm done with you and your games. and i also realized. that i hate being out of the loop. because it hurts more when i find out about these kind of things later.

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first period; hilarious. we alway bag on brian, but it's because we love you red ranger! today during lunch was so funnnnny. booom chicka booom boooom. andrew can't do the head thing that i can do! :D and instead of onetwothreefourfivesixBUZZ. we played buzzbuzzbuzzbuzzbuzzbuzzSEVEN! and i poked jeffrey's stomach and he was so dirty! he was like " you poke my chest i get to poke yours!" i was like. :O did you just say that?! hilarious. today i'm going to work my butt off so i don't think about other stuff. i'm going to work til my fingers fall off. LOL, and in fifth period today so funny. me and oliver's intense stare head nod thing. and ricky blowing in his ear when he was sleeping. XD and brian being a retard again...like always. :D and i spent chemistry doing my homework. mr hobbs doesn't even care cause he knows i'm listening at the same time. yeahhh! ownage, i love chemistry it's so interesting and fun to do. i love figuring out a really difficult problem. the satisfaction is great. ohyeah and today in apeuro was so funnny. we had a writing quiz that i was READY FOR! ownage! oh yeah, and fourth period english was so funnnny. haha, i just noticed everything is out of order. it's in the order i remember it people! so yeah fourth period, watched the joy luck club. and me drake and maxwell sat in the back in front of the computer cause it's better! and freaking drake took up like half the seat so i'm falling off. and then there's that one scene where the girl gets raped. except we didn't know it was coming.so mrs. mirsch covers the projecter., but it still shows up on the computer and we didn't know it was coming. and it comes. and me and drake and maxwell. are like AHHHHH! EWWW! and i run away and ALL the guys run over cause they want to see her get raped! -_________-; freaking dirty guys, freaking hilarious. :D omg, i'm so freaking excited for monday. my catch up dramas day. boysbeforeflowers! preview to ep12! gah so excited! so much soeul+gaeul! especially the part where he saves her! i'm so excited. and ep10+11 with jung eui chul. WHO IS NOT OLD KELLY! he's so cuuuuuuteeeee. heartheartheart. and i need to watch hwanyobi's farewell episode on we got married. D: sighhh, but i like the new couples so whatevers. and i'm in LOVE with "is not likely to know" by jewelry. especially seo in young's voice. it's so goooood. now i have to watch the movie in the mv. the frivolous wife/taming of the shrew. with park jungah who is in jewelry. she's so pretty in it. and the guy isn't bad looking so yeah! excited me! and dude dude dude, korean power ballads are so goood. so much raw emotion. good lyrics man. so beautiful. really touches me. man i'm talking in sentence fragments. mrs. mirsch would kill me. D: i forgot to wear my bridges shirt today. oh well, whatever, FOURDAYWEEEEEKEND. yeah boy, yeah. oh yeah, and thanks willllllllly for cheering me up. you're a sweetheart. what would i do without friends? nothing probably cause i'm a loser. :D okay okay, got to get to work now. apeuro alll night baby. will probably blog again with some nonsense lyrics to some beautiful korean power ballad that made me cry because the guy flew off a cliff or the girl died of chronic illness. be ready my dears.<3

it isn't likely you know.

nobody knows, not even in their dreams. you don't know either. not at all. the words of goodbye pound repeatedly on my heart. there's not a single moment of peace. you might not know, no, you might be different. once again, my head causes my heart to ache uncontrollably. and because i can't express my resentment openly. even my heart is about to burst, you're the only one i love. i say it over and over again. what love is. that time will take care of everything. i try to button my heart. but it's so unraveled that i can't do anything. you might not know. no you might be different. once again, my head causes my heart to ache uncontrollably. and because i can't express my resentment openly. even if my heart is about to burst. you're the only one i love. i felt so lost the day you left. no matter how i call. i have to let you go. i waited., i didn't waste a single day. my heart moistens the corners of my eyes again. but he's the person i long for. even if you leave me again. even if all you leave me with is tears. you're the only one i love. you might not know, no. you might be different. once again my head causes my heart to ache uncontrollably. and because i can't express my resentment openly. even if my heart is about to burst, you're the only one i love. but it isn't likely you know.;jewelry.

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let music do the talking.

can you hear me now?

in the end, we will eventually pass each other. left behind the recollection to forget each other. love the pain you left me. how will i be able to endure my grief? every day the bitter thoughts come in. falling in love with you was death and i didn't regret the decision. when thinking about it, it makes me want to go crazy. cry as if nobody is around. please don't forget. please don't forget. i am by your side. i love you, can you hear it? even though you can't be by my side, this isn't goodbye. because. the path you choose will make us meet again. i will wait for you forever. even if you forget me. because of love, i will love you. your tears, your loneliness. i will take them with me. please don't cry anymore. even if the world brings you grief. i love you. can you hear it? can you hear me now?;lee seung chul. east of eden ost.

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beautifulpeople; beautifulmusic.

lethario! <3

confirmation2 last night was so funnnnny. charades. *points at hand then points at crotchular area* hancock! *makes rain movements and does hula dance* tropical rainstorm! *pewpewpewpewpewpew* jimmy! who is NOT nineteen, more like fortynine, omg that's older than my mom! haha, good times. THEDO! me and him and nick&norah. heartheartheart. especially lethario! who is soooo funny. beefy guy! what's your name. anything you want it to be! ;D i love you. i love you too. i love you so much it's retarded! and tris sticking her foot in nick's ear. mannn! funnnnny.

freaking a! :D spanish2 with brianbui today was so freakinghilarious. we learned about tv stuff like how to say actor and soap opera. and this totally sparked brian's want to be some freako genius actor like brad pitt. he started pretending to faint and then getting shot by a gun. and then being surprised. and then he made me do it. except all i did was laugh cause he's super retarded. and then he was like do the shocked face. just pretend i just ripped my clothes off! i was like. WTF?! and then he proceeds to fake rip his pants off like a chippendales stripper. yes brian that is your future. not actor. but chippendales stripper. LOL, and matthew with the LIEchee candy. totally dropped it like me last time. and this time brian didn't offer to eat it! haha, matthew ate it! ewwww, it was on the floor for like FOUR SECONDS. but the candy is so good we can't help it! everyone thanks my grandma. :D today was a sunny day. :O not like freako weather yesterday! let's hope for the best. because an epidemic is flying around! thanks a lot andrew! "I'M MR. AZCONA!" :D

eye ell why.

using your eyes to see myself, the happiest reflection. the connection that we hold in our hands, is our guidance for tomorrow. it doesn't matter near or far. what century when we embrace in heaven, or wander in the wilderness. i love you, i am willing to go. to whatever life i do not know. i love you, i am willing. allowing you to step forward and decide, the edge of the world. occasionally i really don't understand you, but who really understands themselves. sometimes the closer two people get is through hurt to prove it. like worried and uncertain, i am stubborn and demanding. afraid to show you're afraid. so you get angry. i love you. let me listen when you are tired and scared. i love you. i want to kiss your heart that is strained to the limit. i hold up all the love. to push back the wind and the rain. to hold back the storm. want to let you breathe. the faith that was cut, needs time to heal. dreams are tangled with suspicion. cannot see the future clearly. so a tight embrace can deliver enough strength and courage. i love you.

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i love you so i want to go. to the unknown. any sort of life. i love you. let me listen to you when you are tired and scared. i love you. i want to kiss your heart that is strained to the limit. wherever we go we go together. together to look at the stars. walk out of a forest, share memories. to misunderstand jealousy. to wait for the sun after the rain. to understand ourselves better to find meaning together. i love you, i can't not have you. because i love you,

callmenow! :D

today's weather is ridiculously crazy! :D it was raining then hailing then sunny. so weird! it's the end of the world! gah! just kidding. ^___________^ today was funnnnn! oh yeah i watched nick&norah yesterday. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH IT'S RETARDED. yeah, i'm going to end with that cause it's so cute. YOU GUYS I LOVE YOU SO MUCH I'M RETARDED. :D

surprisesurprise.

i thought about something. i might do it. no names. no nothing. just something nice. because some people need the encouragement. in the mean time, i'm working on my poker face. :D i have a lot of work to do. i hope this works out. never mind.

i have been horribly sick lately. andrew passed it on to me! grrrr! coughed out some blood, which is EW and so korean drama right kelly? i'm getting better except my nose hurts like a whoooooootbeeeep. and i had a horrible headache last night. i'm going to the orthodontist today, boo! doctor painless my boooooty! i hate going there. i hope i don't cough in his face. i get so anxious. eeeep, i hate it! i have a lot of euro to do today. because i procrasinated. shame jessica, for shame. i'm sorry self! must study tonight. eeeeeeep, i'm excited because four day weekend next week! yay, and also. on saturday it is valentine's day! yay! for valentine's day! good luck to the girls. ;D that is all folks.

lovestory; gavy nj.

i keep looking at only you. even though there's someone else by your side. like always only in my eyes. my heart is fill with only you. once in a while when you give me a passing smile. i think about that smile the whole day. do you get it? if your girl was me, if my love was you. i want to love. i want to have you. even though i can't say the words that i prepared all night. you're the only one for me. the one who makes me cry. the one person who makes my heart flutter. it's okay if it hurts. even if i can't have you. i'll stay behind you. and live cherishing only you. it's okay because i love you. if i can just see you. what do you like so much about your girl? that you're always laughing when you see her. i guess i'm a helpless girl. i'm so jealous of her. if i can just see you. even though i promise not to, my eyes look only at you. my heart has gone crazy. it looks for only you. even thouh i shouldn't fall in love with you. it's you, only you. no matter how much i wish it. it probably won't make a difference. i want to go back. i'll let you go. it's okay if it hurts. even if i can't have you. i'll stay behind you. and live cherishing only you. thank you, even though you're not my love. because i'll still be able to see you.

basically, my feelings in a teacup. even i don't know who they're for.

talk play love;

what a wonderful day it was. i did so so so well in apeuro today. today me and andrew performed our skit countless number of times. "rawrrr! ahhhh! i'll save you! because i have.... COURAGE!" haha, poor maria&kevin, no retreat. D: make me sad! guava! shirtless people. fruitcups. forks! ariel. bikes, which i can't ride becuase i'm so short. D: oliver. LIEchee. cutecutecute. other fun stuff. today was fun. ^ ____ ^





sometimes it's hard to understand you. and hold on at the same time.

rainnnnnny days.

i thought about you when i walked home in the rain. don't get sick.




*waves bye at kathy* i'll miss you! have fun and bring me back a souvenir.

i will be here.

tomorrow morning, if you wake up. and the sun does not appear. i will be here. if in the dark, we lose sight of love. hold my hand, and have no fear. i will be here. i will be here, when you feel like being quiet. when you need to speak your mind. i will listen. and i will be here. when the laughter turns to crying. through the winning, losing, and trying. i will be here. cause, i will be here. tomorrow morning, if you wake up. your future is unclear. i will be here. hey, just as sure as seasons were made for change. our lifetimes were made for these years. i will be here. i will be here. and you can cry on my shoulder. when the mirror tells us we're older. i will hold you. and i will be here. to watch you grow in beauty. and tell you all the things you are to me. i will be here oh i will be true to the promise i have made. to you and to the one who gave you to me. i will be here. we'll be together. cause, i will be here. <3

yesterday was a day of twenty questions. haha, ohmygosh. kevin is SO dirty. like, seriously. and then today was fun. stayed after school. saw the guys doing pushups and situps. so sad! i bought a water bottle. but yeah. lol, kathy and kelly were funnnnnnnnnnnnn today. today was fun. i have lots of work to do. plus plus plus, we got married is subbed! & boysbeforeflowers. eeeek! i'm excited. ortho on sunday. blah! D: i'm scared, as always. wish me luck. off to do euro now! bye dearies. :D

a fool's only tears.

my hair isn't dry right? ;D lol, little juice boxes, funny. i feel so sad for the tennis guys. i seriously was like. D: when i saw them running for hell week. i waved at the guys. it made me very sad to see them so tired. D: i'm very tired. i think i'm sick. actually i know i'm sick. i need to rest. but i have to work. so work now rest later. i was sleeping during lunch, so i guess i'll be okay. ^^:

020209.

i have discovered the one delicious kerns. it is....guava! it's very good. which marks the great day i had today. :]


that is all.