way back into love.

so. yeah, today was p90x day one. after that. took a LONGLONGLONG shower. it felt so good. my arms are sore. damn, after working out. i felt super productive. annotated a bunch. and then i was talking to davidpham and we are both fail because we stopped annotating for the rest of the day. uhmmm, viikii.net is pissing me off because it won't let me watch meteor shower. keeps stop loading. AHHHH, hate it. and then. downloaded oregon trail on my itouch. finished the whole game. hehehe, the whole family survived except one girl who got eaten by an eagle. which is like WTF?! why is the eagle as big as all my family members put together i do not understand. since yesterday, i can't stop singing, my sister has been complaining. HAHAH. (: what am i doing now? ermmm, online window shopping. oh topshop. why must you have such beautiful pieces. i can't stop singing the cover of sexy love that jessica and jonghyun sang on shim shim tapa. very very good harmony. except when jessica missed that high note. FAIL. haha, just kidding. (: ermmmmm, what else. registration stuff came yesterday. i do not know if i mentioned that. but that means. registration is coming. omfg, i think i'm going to buy a yearbook. which is EIGHTYFIVE BUCKS. WTF. FAIL. but seriuosly, i need to get all the seniors to sign it. *tears* a whole page for kevin tran. and fred! D: sighhhhhh! D: tears forever. seriously. i have a general dentist appointment this sunday. uh, FAIL, I HATE. friday is kathy's thing i'm excited. (: me and david are going to pig out on korean bbq. he told her to get chocopies, uh i don't think so. :] ohyeah, seriously. this ninetynine cent store tank i used for working out. is SO COMFORTABLE. i actually have half a mind to belt it and wear it outside. it is that versatile. plus. SO COMFY. i love it! i love love love it. (: i think if it's still hot by the first day of school, i'll wear a really casual dress. if i buy one on my shopping trip with mom when she comes back. or for registration. we'll see. (: i just have the urge to do so. so i might. (: hehehe! i remember last saturday i spent all of church just thinking, hm what will i wear on the first day of school. i know theresa was thinking the same thing! she's very nervous about high school. reminds me of...ME. and i know this year i'm still going to freak out about whether i should bring my instrument or not. and i'll text fred like every year and say ARE YOU BRINGING YOUR INSTRUMENT. before i remember that OH WAIT, fred plays the freaking CELLO so it doesn't matter. and then i'll not bring it. and then regret it. or bring it and feel like a loser carrying it around. (: hm, i am in dire need of a trip to f21. no kidding, I WANT TO WIN THAT 400 DOLLAR GIFT CARD. OMFG. which reminds me. gotta check the 17 and teenvogue web for new contests. jessica needs a shopping spree. (: so basically, if i want to lose one and half pounds a week. i have to regulate my calorie intake to 1,142 calories a day. i don't know if that's A LOT. or what. but heck, with the p90x under my belt. i feel like i can do anything. even though i'm freaking tired after doing it. i also feel super energized. like i can do anything. which explains the impromptu annotating session. (: ermermerm, what else? i think i reallllllly like CL's style from 2NE1. well not her style , like on the cover and stuff. but normal style. and also her personality. like her confidence, she just exudes confidence. i like that. i want to be like her! my new role model. ;D LMFAO. :D dear 14.50 nautical stripes f21 dress. i want you. (: hehe! gah, still on a search for a cheaper than most leather jacket. i saw the update on leather jackets on urbanoutfitters blogs. gorgeous stuff right there. no joke! now, in terms of digital cameras. i think i really like the coolpix s230 from nikon. the plum one is adorable. (: hehehe! right so, another thing that's frustrating me is my freaking pores! they like go half away. and then come back. it's making me angryyyy! GO AWAY YOU STUPID PORES. D:< anyways, i like the song one year later. i think jessica and onew's voices are reallllly good together. okay scratch that. i really love onew's voice. (: teeeheee! onew condition! ;D oh yeah i'd like to reiterate how comfy sports bras are. LMFAO, they really are. i think i'm just reminding myself how comfy they are. yeahhhh. oh yeah, today i watched wild bunny epiosde 5. OMFG, it was so hilarious. this is why i love 2PM. especially wooooyoungggg. *heart* i was like spitting out my water. and holding my tummy cause i was laughing so hard. (: i loved it! ^-^ ohyeah, one thing i don't get is why doesn't h&m have a online shopping section for the US. the last time i checked i had to go to like the swedish web to look at the clothes. and it was like, WHAT? I DON'T UNDERSTAND SWEDISH. D: and also the clothes sizes there are RETARDED. but, they have nice clothes. for cheap. so i like. BUT STILL, so confusing. no pain no gain? brain pain. D: so i entered a contest on teenvogue.com to win fifty thousand dollars. OMG IF I WIN FIFTY THOUSAND DOLLARS. *has a heart attack* :D i'm such a hopeful person. i never win stuff like this. BUT IMAGINE IF I DID. ha, too much hope. T-T sighhh! last night watched hell's kitchen and america's got talent. hell's kitchen was hilarious! chef ramsey to tenille: you're crap. tenille: ... YOU'RE CRAP. me: HAHAHAHAHAHA! WHAT A DUMB BUNNY! it was hilariuos. and for america's got talent. i loved loved loved. u4ia. or horwever you spell it. they ROCKED it. i still don't get how the dog act got through. and the last act. lawrence beatermen or something, i have no idea how to spell it. HIS VOICE IS AMAZING. LIKE HEAVEN. IN A VOCAL BOX. omg, i love his voice. it's so. SMOOOOOTH. "like velvet" as sharon said. i loved it. (: and then me and my sister COULD not sleep, we spent like thirty minutes giggling. it was hilarious. (: okay, i JUST REALIZED. why it was only in swedish. H&M IS A SWEDISH COMPANY. hahaha, you're a loser jessica! (: listening to sexy love again. SHE MISSED THE HIGH NOTE. drives me nuts everytime. and everytime i hear jonghyun i always think of a monkey. cause he looks like a monkey. (: yay monkeys! we humans are descendants from MONKEYS. that doesn't make grammatical sense. but whatever! :D right so i was using this vaseline lotion thing. that smells AMAZING. and now my CUTICLES LOOK AMAZING. LIKE SO AMAZING AND NICE. cause before i didn't really take care of those things. i mean come on who cares. but now THEY SMELL SO GOOOD. it's amazing! like MAGIC! :D so i've heard a lot about the clothing brand zara. or company whatever. checking it out right now. and i just got a heart attack cause i didn't know the website had music. uhmm, my heart is still racing. one second. idk how the website works. but i know there's no zara around HERE. sigh. stupid california. D: no underground korean clothing stores that are more than sanitary. no topshop. no zaras. lately, my eyes have been drawn to sleeveless, items. i like i like. (: i also need something sheer. sigh. i wish i could win the lottery, there goes my wishful thinking again. hey, it's okay to dream right? :D something easier for me to buy. tennis shoes. which i need cause my pink converse are falling apart. i still can't find those clear tennis shoes from gojane that i saw in seventeen. but anyways, yeah i'm thinking just go for vans. or keds. or imitation crud. (: hehehe! but yeah. i like my sandals. comfy. i need another pair. just for the heck of it. sandals are so dangerous to wear. mine ALWAYS break at school. or my flipflops do. what kind of fail is that? whenever i look for clothes onlines. i always go to the sort by. PRICE: LOWEST TO HIGHEST: hahaha. but on urban outfitters. the lowest is always like. a bra. LOL, and then sometimes a bra costs more than a necklace. or a pair of sunglasses costs more than a pair of pants. i do not understand! ahhhhhhhhh! D: oh oh, i saw this guy wearing this AWESOME yellow retro vintage-y watch. omfggg, that reminds me i need an AWESOME watch too! (: yellow? turquoise! yeah turquoise. retro style. i'm thinking fredflare style mang. :D one thing i love about urban outfitters is that they have a KIMCHI blue romper. that is not blue. it's floral. that makes me laugh. the romper is adorable though. anyways anyways anyways. i'm off to sing and annoy my sister. and finish up presents. GAH! :D

i've been watching the stars but they refuse to shine, jdn.