don't stop believin'.

 just a small town girl, living in a lonely world.

she took the midnight train going anywhere.

don't stop believing.

hold on to the feeling.

streetlight people.

is it here yet?

i wish christmas would just come already. i'm excited. i just. love the feeling of christmas in the air. giving presents. getting presents. the smiles. the laughter. hot chocolate. and roasting marshmallows. and joy. and happiness. and just the feeling of waiting for christmas to come. not just for little kids who are waiting for santa but waiting for that moment when nothing really matters except being with the people you love.

so on christmas eve my little sister and i are setting up a tent in the living room next to the christmas tree and we're going to camp out next to the christmas tree. and we're going to try to wake up at 12AM and rip open our presents. and we're going to tell ghost stories in this tiny tent. and eat junk food. and flash flashlights around. and just do crazy stuff in this tiny tent we've had for a bajillion years. as embarassing and as lame as it is. i'm extremely excited. i seriously love my little sister.

the topic of winter formal has been flying around. to go or not to go. that is the question. i don't know. winter formal isn't really my kind of scene. i might go just to support maria since she and girl's league worked so hard to plan it. maybe. i get the feeling i'll be extremely uncomfortable in that environment. i think i'll just hang out outside. (:

anyways, this week has been actually a really good week. two more days until winter break is here. i'm so excited. and so ready for the two weeks of relaxation. are you having a good day? i hope so.

muchos gracias, jessicadnguyen.

time for some changes.

bad. ass.

rainy day blues.

when it rains, i feel sad. maybe it's 'cause when it rains, i think god is crying for us.

oh so so.

sometimes it's really scary when you're surrounded by people but feel incredibly alone. i'm standing in this insane crowd. people everywhere. talking. eating. laughing. smiling. christmas music playing in the background. soapy snow falling on top of my head. and yet the only thing i can do is stare at the sky and think about how lonely life can be. it sends shivers down my spine just thinking about it. maybe that's why i hate being alone. it's just scary, the concept of spending the rest of your life by yourself. eating alone. watching tv alone. going places alone. whenever i see people eating alone at restaurants i wish i could sit with them. you know how boring it is to eat alone? really boring. i did it this morning. everyone was somewhere. so i made myself a bowl of cereal and read the newspaper. the house was really quiet, kind of scary. i could hear everything. water dripping. fridge humming. the house moving. rustle of the newspaper. crunch goes the cereal. kind of creepy. solitude is.

yesterday was the FV tree lighting, which was where i was practically ten hours of the day. i was there in the morning from eight to eleven thirty ish. then came home went to church for three hours. then went straight back and stayed from five until ten at night cleaning and helping with booths. it was really fun. i spent most of the night playing with doug. we had to shovel up the fake snow. with our HANDS. it was very cold. the fireworks were nice. yaddayaddayadda, who cares.

oh so, catch me if you can.

pensive blogging.

i wish i had a pensieve. you know, the one from harrypotter? the little bowl thing that dumbledore keeps his thoughts in. if i had one of those, that'd be pretty cool. i could just put all the confusing our contradicting thoughts in the bowl. and then i could just spend hours staring at them until they made sense. they could just swirl around until they separated into things that i could understand. but. then again, if EVERYONE had a pensieve, life wouldn't be as interesting. right? right.

something quick while i annotate.

douglas tran is my freaking blog hero. i wish i could blog like him. :(


i'll blog this weekend. kay? bye!




oh yeah, doesn't it feel like christmas? i love it. (: