sometimes, your own words just aren't enough.

"i'm like a sticky note. when you need me, you can use me. i'm always there. when you don't need me. you can just throw me away. i never leave a mark. simple. easy. forgotten. sticky note girl." someone is waiting, someone who understands exactly how you feel. someone is dreaming. someone is hoping that this will be the day. that you will take your eyes off the ground. out of the blue. and see that someone is looking right back at you. maybe that someone's me. maybe it's meant to be. lovers, strangers. sometimes bombs fall quietly. maybe it's chemistry. maybe it's hard to see that someone is the right on. i hope that someone is me. nobody's perfect, no one really knows the truth. all we've got is a point of view. and there's too many questions. and too many reasons not to try. but you should take your eyes off the ground. out of the blue. and see that someone is looking right back at you. where you gonna go from here? 'cause everything you need's out there. and you can have it if you dare. there's someone somewhere. [someone somewhere; jason reeves.] "what else am i still hoping for? i met a prince yesterday. i became a princess in one night. i should be content. from today onwards, you must work hard to suppress your true feelings. you must not let anyone find out. you must keep a distance away from him. for the sake of staying by his side a bit longer. you must fight on. & stay strong." you fought your way up to the wall. but you haven't gone past at all. while gazing with tear filled eyes. you just can't help but ask why. if trying hard is what it takes. then why does it feel like a mistake? the words has taken its side. you just wanna run away and hide. it's tough, there's no one to turn to. i hear screaming inside you. feel's like hell's all you've been through. hell's all you've been through. hold on. don't stop your breathing. i see your dreams and i feel them too. hold on. don't lose your faith. i know you can't break. i'm hoping and praying for you. all your peace seems far away. but you know there comes a day. when everything's so bright. all the darkness you feel subsides. and in the rising of the sun. you can finally say it's done. the world will take your side. and your heart will start to shine. i will be holdin gonto you. there is nothing you can't do. i will try to be strong. hold on. don't stop your breathing. i see your dreams and i feel them too. hold on. don't lose your faith . i know you can't break. i'm hoping and waiting for you. [hold on; david choi.] "love&respect. until we don't have a reason too." say you're sorry. that face of an angel comes out just when you need it to. as i pace back and forth all this time. 'cause i honesty believed in you. holding on. that days drag on. stupid girl. i should have known. that i'm not a princess. this ain't a fairytale. i'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet. lead her up the stairwell. this ain't hollywood. this is a small town. i was a dreamer before you went and let me down. now it's too late for you and your white horse. to come around. baby, i was naive. got lost in your eyes. i never really had a chance. my mistake, i didn't know. to be in love you had to fight to get the upper hand. i had so many dreams about you and me. happy endings. now i know. i'm not a princess. this ain't a fairytale. i'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet. lead her up the stairwell. this ain't hollywood. this is a small town. i was a dreamer before you went and let me down. now it's too late for you and your white horse. to come around. and there you are on your knees. begging for forgiveness. begging for me. just like i always wanted, but i'm so sorry. 'cause i'm not your princess. this ain't our fairytale. i'm gonna find someone someday. who might actually treat me well. this is a big world. that was a small town. there in my rear view mirror. disappearing now. and it's too late for you and your white horse. to catch me now. [white horse; taylor swift.] sometimes, the world just needs to stop for you to have the time to understand. looking from the window above. it's like a story of love. can you hear me? came back only yesterday. who went further away. want you near me. all i needed was the love you gave. all i needed for another day. and all i ever knew. only you. sometimes when i think of her name. when it's only a game. and i need you. listen to the words that you say. it's getting harder to stay. when i need you. all i needed was the love you gave. all i needed for another day. and all i ever knew. only you. this is gonna take a long time. and i wonder what's mine. can't take no more. wonder if you'll understand. it's just the touch of your hand. behind a closed door. all i needed was the love you gave me. all i needed for another day. only you. and all i ever knew. only you. [only you; joshua radin.] "once upon a time. there was a boy who received a pair of wings. the boy wanted to become an angel. so without any doubts or directions. he flew toward the sky. slowly. he flew higher and further. but he didn't yet know. that the moment he flew up. he could never return. the lives of children are beautiful. they are always understood. and taken care of. there area alway free. but that boy, could only be in the endless sky. flying with all his strength. flapping his wings. as they slowly blur the true hapiness and life of a child. and yet. he never regretted flying toward the sky. he found another happiness. he can touch things that people can't even see in the sky. the sun, the moon. the clouds. and the shining stars. he flew through many cities. and in the cities there were many people. many smiled and looked upon him with eyes of admiration and worship. and they wanted to know what his life in the sky was life. perhaps in their hearts. the boy is a smiling angel. or a boy who only knows how to fly and smile sheepishly. perhaps in their hearts. he was very happy. and seeing them, made him very happy. so to keep the people smiling, he continues to fly, harder, higher, further. he flies alone in the sky. to the east and to the west. carrying with him both pain and happiness. behind the admirations, he feels so many pains. the air is cold. he must fly through rain and wind. thunder and lightning. he hides with all his life. at crucial moments, the sun and moon will help him out. the boy is tired, but he never stops. and never feels safe. he's lonely, with no one to talk to. sometimes, he would fly back to see the normal kids' lives. and his eyes would feel with jealousy. because even though he was free to fly anywhere he wanted. those children who were playing, were truly the free ones. he though of flying back down. cutting off his wings. but after falling to the ground. would it be disaster, or paradise? he can never know, so he contines to fly. he learns to protect himself with silence. he faces obstacles directly and sometimes he'll want to escape. he wants to disappear in the world for a second. and so he continues to fly. although he sometimes will go back to watch the normal kids live, he no longer admires them. he knows that these kids will eventually grown their own wings. and fly toward their own skies. the boy matured. he knows he's lucky. and learned to be thankful. he understood something. the moment he grew wings. the sky became his fate. he can only use his wings to soar up high. i believe. i can fly." music is therapy at a perfection. & sometimes, your own words are perfectly fine.

goodbye my almost lover, jdn.

^-^

thank god i have god.



love&respect.
until we lose the reason to.

i love you. (:

• life is good.
• school is freaking awesome.
• won't be on as much.
• because i'm focused.
• but, i still love you. (:
• catcha later gator.

still in your hearts, jdn.

man, todayyyyyyyyyy.

HAPPY SUPER SIXTEEN KELLLLLY.
happy 090909 day.
happy SNSD [9] day.
happy I FINISHED MY ANNOTATIONS AT 430PM day.
happy LAST DAY OF SUMMER.

goodbye summer of 09. you've been good to me. (:
hello schoooooooooool. please BE GOOD TO ME. :D


with loveeee, jdn.

majorrrrrrrr. LABORDAYWEEKEND. (:

HELLLLOFRIENDS. haven't superblogged in a long time! BUT, first things first. DON'T ASK QUESTIONS. JUST SIGN THIS PETITION. [http://www.petitionspot.com/petitions/supportleaderjaypark/] DO IT NOWWWW. poor leader jay. D: people are so mean! so mean! anyways, just sign it! hehehe! and uhhhm, today is saturday. SEPT05. which means five more days 'til school starts! D: uhm, i'm like fifteen ish chapter away from being done with annotations. yay me. i've been totally lagging the past few days. been obsessing over. sigh. big brother. how lame is that! but. but. I CAN'T STOP WATCHING. ughhhhhhhhhhh! and on that subject. I CANNOT BELIEVE JEFF WAS EVICTED. ... AJKFDAOISFAOSDF. i was like. WHYWHYWHY. :'( now him and jordan have to be SEPARATED. OH NOOOOO. D: why ! stupid kevin and natalie. grrrrrrrrrr, they totally BETRAYED HIM! it made me SO MADDD. i hope jordan wins. :DDD anyways, getting back into using last.fm. cause it's fun. ^-^ and last night has like a bajillion hour conversation with my mom. she's so funnnnny! and fun to talk to. (: i won't elaborate cause there's nothing much to elaborate about. i have a cool mom. ^-^ uhhhm. OMFGGGG. tablo is getting MARRIED. what the hack is that about! but his fianceee is super pretty. (: i'm being such a fan girl today. XD last.fm led me to listening to joshua radin. OMG. good stuff. and also jason reeves. i like i like! (: what else. so much to talk about! geeeeebus. uhmuhmuhm. i'm drawing a blank. so i'll just talk randomly until i die. just kidding. not really. what? yes. okay. i watched the first episode of project runway. it was SO FUNNNNNY. man, what is up with me and reality television?! SHAME ON MEEEE. but it's so addicting. D: like kelly's addiction to reality teevee about pregnant teenagers and secrets! tsk tsk kelly! :) uhmmmm 4MINUTE's new album is so goooood. it's called...for muzik? i think. my favorite song is what a girl wants. *can't stop listening* and what else. still listening to vitas lu yes i am. i haven't been catching up on my meteor shower and soul and asian drama stuff. i'm like, too lazy to go on the computer lately. i just feel like finishing up the annotations. buti finish like two chapters and i'm like UGHHHH, why am i doing this?! at least i'm ahead of brianbui! he's on page fifteen. ;D hahahha loserface. (: omg, i just remembered how MUCH THE PLAGUE ANNOYS ME. [are you reading this mjkk?! THE PLAGUE!] i'm sorry. but THEPLAGUE & STATSBOY DAY? ARE YOU KIDDING ME. GO EAT POOOOOOP. D: you're not that special. don't think you are. YOU DON'T MEAN ANYTHINGG. if she comes near the table this year i'm going to be like. *evil glares* like last year when she was lke. where's kevin? and i was like. not here. duh. :DDD i'm so mean. (: HAHAHAHHA. OH YEAH. on the topic of hate. I HATE THE NEW BLOCKLES. whyyyyyyyyyyyy did they change it?! i hate the new one. it's so lame! and it's hard. i like the old one that was like tetris! why why why. *super complains* blah blah. i can't wait for school to start. like no jokeeeee. (: i'm a little scared about all the APS. cause freaking hiep and john were scaring me yesteday. "JESSICA? JESSICA? WHERE'S YOUR SCHEDULE. GIVE ME YOUR SCHEDULE. OMGGGG YOU'RE GOING TO DIE. JUST KIDDING." *tears* i never really get tired of listening to the diary of jane by breaking benjamin. it's like the ONE semi screamo ish not really but they kinda scream song that i can actually listen to and not cringe. but when he does scream a little bit at the end of the chorus. where it's like "how it should BEEEAHHHHHROARRRROOARRRRAHHHH" yeah. scary. i think the acoustic one is the best. cause it's not screamy. and it's so soft. and the words are there. and i'm like. *sigh* no screaming. (: lalala, i'm in a good mood todayyyyy. (: last night i was SO HYPER. i was like harassing little vinh it was hilarious. (: yomyomyom. nyomnyomnyom. uhmuhmuhm. school! yay! yay! i get this urge to rewatch antique bakery. that was SUCH a good movie, and so funny. i really wanna watch cloudy with a chance of meatballs. it looks so goooood. ;D and also, i wanna watch coco avante chanel. or something, it's about the designer chanel. it looks really goood! i saw it on showbiz extra. i think i'll have to watch it online cause it's a european movie. :/ anywhoooo. upbeat music makes me want to dancedancedance. (: OH YEAH, IT'S LABORDAY WEEKEND. i totally forgot. laborday weekend this year i'm partayingggggggg. what a lame-o. PARTY. and SHOPPPP. hello, laborday means major sales. ;D i haven't really updated my chictopia. i'm so lazy. DAMN MY LAZINESS. :'( i'll try to first day of school. i'm gonna wear something loserly watch! :'( hahahahah! ANYWAYSSSS, online shopping time. and piano practicing. i HAVE to master victor's piano solo from corpse bride. (:

scandaloussssssssss, jdn.

note to god.

if i wrote a note to god. i would speak what's in my soul. i'd ask for all the hate to be swept away. for love to overflow. if i wrote a note to god. i'd pour my heart out on each page. i'd ask for war to end. and for peace to mend this world. i'd say; give us. the strength to make it through. help us. find love 'cause love is overdue. and it seems like so much is goin' wrong. on this road we're on. if i wrote a note to god. i would say please, help us find our way. end all the bitterness. put some tenderness in our hearts. i'd say. give us the strength to make it through. help us find love 'cause love is overdue. and it looks like we haven't got a clue. need some help from you. grant us the faith to carry on. give us. hope when it seems all hope is gone. 'cause it seems like so much is goin' wrong. on this road we're on. no, we can't do it on our own. so. give us the strength to make it through. help us find love 'cause love is overdue. and it looks like we haven't got a clue. need some help. grant us the faith to carry on. give us hope when it seems all hope is gone. and it seems like so much is goin' wrong. on this road we're on. no. we can't do it on our own. so. if i wrote a note to god...

;jdn.

SEPT1.

happy first day of september! HAPPY REGISTRATION DAY. all i have to say is that i was super hyper. it was SUPER FUN. eating com tam with ltc was the best time ever! and picking secret santa was SO FUNNNNY. and i love my schedule. and now i'm lazy. and i'll just post up my schedule. (: I LOVE IT! ^-^

junior year schedule! (:
0: advanced orchestra / gustaskus.

1: spanish 3 / jimenez.
2: us history / nadeau.
3: ap lang / rose.
4: ap calculus ab / greek.
5: ap physics b / brunner.
6: (1) intro business / rumble. (2) health / azcona.



i love my life. (: , jdn.