QUEHUONG6.5: SAIGON!

okay, so camp was.....FREAKING FUN! best camp ever. and here is my recap. QUE HUONG 6.5 BABY. so camp was at chino hills. between MAY29-31, 2009.

friday: got to church with my overpacked duffel. and got into groups. SAIGON FTW. my group was seriously the best. SO STACKED. it was me, david vu, bob!, jason!, huong!, sophia, vincent pham, and lisa tran!. seriously stacked. and then we got into cars. i was STUCK with hiep and teresa. and i was like, “sorry if i ruin your ROMANTIC DRIVE!” and they were like, it’s okayyyyyy. and in the car, it was really funny. cause hiep is freaky. and teresa would ask me “jessica, i’m gonna hold hiep’s hand okay?” i’m like... dot dot dot. *awkward silence* but they’re a cute couple. cause she calls him boyfriend. and hiep is a retard. OKAY! got to camp. it was SO SO SO NICE. bad side: BUGS GALORE. so many bus. i wanted to die! but the scene was so nice. and beautiful. and the lake. i felt all nostalgic. and i wish you guys could’ve seen it. [MJKK!] and then we started playing with the logs. and there were A LOT white people there. camping. so it was like. whitewhitewhiteASIANGROUP.whitewhitewhite. it was pretty funny. and we went to one of the bathrooms. and the stall had NO DOORS. IT WAS SO GHETTO. so we were like, uhhh...anyone in here. *awkward* the other bathroom was better. EXCEPT FOR THE DEAD BUGS ON THE TOILET. *dies* and then we had one hour to build a gate and set up two tents. which was pretty hard. OUR GATE WAS SO COOL. it was a mini replica of the DHNS2008 gate with the pyramid but minus the yarn. and it was pretty cool. then we had to MAKE FREAKING DINNER. and we had to BARGAIN. which was fun. cause i was like LOOK ME IN THE EYES. LOOK AT HOW HUNGRY WE ARE. NOW SELL ME THAT TOMATO FOR 10,000 VIETNAMESE DOLLARS. it was so funny. we made sandwiches. yumyumyum. and then at night, we played some games, anh huy’s games. they were okay. but the highlight of the night was anh bao’s adoration thingee. we had a ball of yarn and it started with anh bao. and he’s like “to whoever gets this, i give my support” and he threw it to someone randomly. mine was “to whoever gets this, i give you my determination” and others were like love, lending hand, crying shoulder, listening ear. it was really cute. cause we were all kinda interconnected. and it was really nostalgic-y feeling. *tears* then we went to sleep. and i had a good night’s sleep! WEIRD.

saturday: woke up at like 7. and we got FIFTY MINUTES to go brush and stuff. which is pretty amazing. cause at doan camp with MORE KIDS we have like twenty minutes and go! so fifty minutes was well appreciated. then we had to go bargain again. we made the shell noodle soup thingee. and WE MADE THE BEST ONE. YEAH, CAUSE WE WON! and then we played tugowar/. except you had to tug the rope all the way to the back. grab a raw catfish [dead] and pass it up to the front of the group. SO GROSSSSSSS. the white people were like. what. the. eff. so hilarious. and then we went and had to COOK THE CATFISH FOR LUNCH. made soup and some fish dish. WE WON AGAIN! SUCK THAT! and then. uhhhh, what did we do! played some other games. most memorable game. chi xuan’s guppy game. she had these guppies in a bowl and we had to pick them up with chopsticks and transfer them to a cup. at first it was SO HARD. but i got THREE OUT. i CRIPPLED ONE. MUAHHAHHA NEMO! and i think one died. so uh, i’m a guppy killer. *tears forever* and thennn, i can’t remember! we interviewed my dad for the skit. fun. and then we made dinner which was meat stuff. i can’t translate in ENGLISH! dangit! and WE WON AGAIN. cause our’s was the BEST! yeah! and then skits. OURS WAS THE BEST. BWAHHAAH, freaking. “i killed....i killed.... A CHICKEN!” so funnnnnnnnnnny! i love davidvu trying to woo lisatran with his sexy moves.”hello dep gai!” freaking hilarious. and then after the skits we had a quiet moment and it was like. thanking all the tro ta. and then we thought it was time for the skit end song thing. and anh huy’s like. “one more thing....” HIEP RUNS IN AND SCREAMS OUT “SOLDIERS! SOLDIERS! COME CAPTURE THESE VIETNAMESE! THEY’RE TRYING TO ESCAPE!” and we freak out. cause we’re like WTF?! and they’re shooting us with water guns and smacking us. and they shove us in our tents. and after we calm down, we realize. OH IT’S TRO TROI LON! WTF! and then we go on this journey. to escape vietnam. and anh bao is our guide. *heartheart* and we had to like lay down on the ground and crawl everytime one of the communist soldiers were around! wtf! and then so funny, cause anh john though he saw a group of us. and it was actually two white people taking a walk. so he’s like RUNNING down the hill screaming in vietnamese. and he realizes it’s white people cause they completely FREEZE IN FEAR. and he just runs STRAIGHT PAST THEM. SCREAMING IN VIETNAMESE ALL THE WAY INTO THE BUSHES. it was sooooooooo funny. and then blahblahblha. FREAKING JOEY’S PART. we’re getting robbed by some pirates. and we’re kneeling on our knees with our hands behind our heads. literally CRYING in fear! cause it was SCARY! and they’re beating up anh bao to get our money. and we’re all freaking out and anh bao is screaming. and then four white people walk by like this. o_____O dotdotdot. and we’re still freaking out. and they’re all weirded out. it was really funny. :D

sunday: wake up. play games. MADE MORE FOOD. yumyumyum. packed up. trip ride back with huong hiep and teresa. i fall asleep. huong puts booger on jessica. *dies* go to church. came home, HOMESWEETHOME.

and the sunset i saw on saturday was SO FREAKING beautiful. like, it was heartwarming. i really wish you saw it.

heartheartheart, JDN.

CAMPPPPP.

i'm gonna misssssssssssss you guys. D:<
see you on monday. *heart*

*happy face*

today was a gooooooooooood day. :D LATE START. AND LANY'S BIRTHDAY. happy sweet sixteen lovely. so came to school. played with "em"'s ds. WHICH HE LEFT THE HACK THING ON. so mario kart was like SUPER slow when i first turned it on! and then went and go breakfast. mmmm, burrito. :D who doesn't like burritos?! raise your hand! yeah i didn’t think so! and then went to orchestra. which was super boring. then went to the bathroom. and then i got attacked by a baton. thanks alan. TOP HATES YOU! first period. got 37/39 on my mathematical induction quiz. NICE. and then i found out i got 100% on the CAHSEE for math. which makes 100% for math and 100% for english. which means i GOT A PERFECT SCORE ON THE CAHSEE. which i don’t know WHY i’m so proud of it but yeah, i’m very proud of it. third period euro was fun. we spent the period having mrs. crosby maniacally analyze our cruddy thesis statements. then we watched a little bit of sense and sensibility. which is actually really good. it’s by jane austen who wrote pride and prejudice which i’m reading for fun. cause i’m kinda getting into the whole historical fiction thing. europeans are prettttttttty scandalous of you know what i mean. ;D fourth period. I GOT A 38/40 ON MY RESEARCH PAPER. I AM SO HAPPY. I AM SO HAPPPPPPPPPPPY! it was SO nerve wracking. eeeeee! :D and then lunch was pretty eventless. then spanish. was kinda fun. for spanish with reyes i mean come on! ALAN freaking spent the period trying to teach peter/olive how to say iloveyou in korean. SARANGHAE. so peter’s attacking me with SARANGHAE’S and i’m just like FAIL FAIL FAIL. and HE CALLS ME A HEARTBREAKER!? YOU SERIUOS MAN?! so far from it! and then me and alan continue our fight over top and tablo and who’s better. i mean COME ON. TABLO FOR THE WIN. and then after class. peter/oliver tries to THROW ME IN THE TRASH CAN. YOU STUPID IADUFOAISJDFKLA. and then we walk to sixth period. and i TRIP. not on the FRONT of peter’s shoe. BUT THE BACK. which calls for some sad laughing at jessica who tripped on the BACK OF SOMEONE ELSE’S SHOE! *tears forever* and then sixth period. went to bathroom. janitor asked me for help. uhhh, yeah weird. it was so FUNNNNNNNNY. in a very disgusting way. watched mythbusters. DO NOT GET IN&OUT OF YOUR CAR WHEN PUMPING GAS. YOU MAY CAUSE AND EXPLOSION. oh yeahhhhhh, and DON’T GET A BOOB JOB. if you go on non pressurized planes or something, YOUR FAKE BOOBS WILL EXPLODE! how awesome is that?! i mean, in a weird boob exploding way. i fell asleep though. cause i’m very tired. :P and then after school. walked home with the lovely friends. and then WENT TO LIBRARY. and yes, i am probably the only girl on the face of the planet who gets excited GOING TO THE LIBRARY. and there was this one girl. with REALLY big boobs. and her boobs were like FALLING OUT. and me and my mom and my sister. walk by thinking. *just pretend you did not see that.* library was fun, got some of the books i wanted. which was nice. but walking around a really big library by yourself is kinda scary. especially in the lower levels where there’s like less and less people. and the bookcases are so HIGH and i see people. and i’m thinking “it’s okay jessica, if anyone attacks me, my scream will alert people for sure, it’s okay!” so funnnnnny. then went to target. i keep getting tricked by the sims3 intro cds and i think they’re the actual sims3 WHICH COMES OUT JUNE2. AHHHHHHH! excited. :D and then went home. went for a run. came home. made dinner. and now DOUGLAS IS DITCHING ME TO GO TO HIS STUPID VOLLEYBALL BANQUET , mvp for sure mvp for sure. and he told me a funny story about a NOONA hitting on him at the hair place thing. but he totally blew her off. cause he’s the MVP. ;D or something like that! and now i’m gonig to excessively read random books and randomly talk to people because i’m cool. :D

heartheartheart, jdn.

HAPPPPPY BIRTHDAY!

happy birthday lanydao! i heart you forever.
happy sweet sixteen! :DDDDDDDD

MJKK.<3

one thing to say: i heart you kathykelly&maria. because! you guys are the best. i’m glad all that is OVER. relieffffffffff! :D heartheartheart you guys. ^____^ today i accidentally called three people. I’M SORRY CHRISTINA, DAVID, AND ANDREW. david called me back and when i said it was an accident. he’s like. oh man, man, i thought it was special! loooooool! heartyou more than taeyeon. ;D and A. LAN. is so weirdddddddd! top is SO NOT BETTTER THAN TABLO. come on, STANDFORD EDUCATION BEATS. TOP’S EDUCATION ANYDAY. you serious!? eeeeeeee, I’M GONNA WIN.

yesterday, movie hopping was fun. watched knowing. SCARIEST @#$@!# EVER! and the COMMERCIALS. @#$@#$@Q#$@! *scared* so scary! and then we movie hopped to watch the ending of....don’t judge me, hannah montana movie. which, dont’ judge me! made me tear up when she was like. I’M JUST ME MILEY. and anyways, that guy was HOT. and MARIAAAAAA, i heart talking to you on the phone. and OMFG, ANTIQUE BAKERY. gi beommmmmmmmmmm, my love. we’ll share. ;D

off to do loads of homework, heartheratheart, JDN.

damn,

playing the piano just makes one feel better doesn't it?
i heart my piano .

the new album is so good. :D

david choiiiiiiiiii!

[if you were here, i’d be okay]
does it have to be one of those days. when happiness wants to push me away? as the dark clouds take over the light, how i feel alone tonight. and i wonder where in the world you are. for all i know we could be miles apart. and i want to hear your voice again. oh i can’t get over you. i miss your love. baby, i miss you more than words could say. my heart beats. but it hurts more everyday. oh baby, what i would give for one more day. i’m feeling so alone. how could i let you go. if you were here, i’d be okay. i can’t deny. that i’m still in love. you’re the only one. i’m always thinking of . and i hope that someday. you can fall back in love with me. i’m sorry for just being wrong. i’m sorry for the way we’ve become. but i’m not sorry for what i’ve been feeling. baby i miss you more than words could say. my heart beats. but it hurts more everyday. baby, what would i give for one more day. i’m feeling so alone. how could i let you go. if you were here i’d be okay.i don’t know where you are. and it’s driving me so crazy. where could you be? just call me, please. i just wanna hear you’re voice say to me, that you need me. ‘cause i need you and i miss you. baby, come back to me. baby i miss you, more than words could say. my heart beats, but it hurts more everyday. baby what would i give for one more day. i’m feeling so alone, how could i let you go. if you were here...baby i miss you more than words could say. my heart beats, but it hurts more everyday. baby what would i give for one more day. i’m feeling so alone. how could i let you go. if you were here i’d be okay.

did i ever say that i freaking love david choi? man. i love this song. :D and for those who like to super analyze blogs, don’t. i didn’t post this up because i’m heartbroken or i miss someone or i feel alone or happiness is pushing me away. i put it up. because....i like it i like it i like it. :DDDDDDDD!

okay, i'm off to play all the songs with the word HAPPY in it from my playlist. because, you know. :D

happy memorial day!

HAPPY MEMORIAL DAY! yesterday was fun.yumyum. :D today i will be taking my little cousins and little sister to the movies to watch idunno, hannah montana?! being the cool auntie I am you know? ;D I’m gonna teach them how to sneak into other movies. :DDDD just kidding, wait no. I really am going to! gotta train the next generations to drain the economy you know? ;D man, I can’t stop listening to love u from the BOF ost. tears forever. and K.WILL’s album dropping the tears. listening nonstop. driving me nuts nuts nuts. :D I REFUSE TO EMO BLOG ANYMORE BECAUSE ME AND MARIA HAVE UNSTICKIFIED EACH OTHER FROM THE ABYSS OF EMONESS. :D YES! HIGH FIVE! I’m going to go leave random voicemails on NOT kelly’s phone now. just kidding. *tearsforever* IT REALLY WASN’T KELLY’S PHONE WTF! D: anyways will blog later later later gator! :D

heartheartheart, jdn.

good morning call!

today was super fun. :D went to the mall with my family. and freaking VIETHOANG. i will kill you when i get to school for embarassing me. i saw viet and i was like. great. i'll pretend i don't know him. but of course he has to go. "JESSICA?! IS THAT YOU?! JESSICA. YOOOHOOO! JESSICA IT'S ME! IT'S ME!" *hides face with shame* my mom's like who is that?! he has retarded hair! is that your boyfriend?! and i'm like NOOOOOOOOOOOO! *tears forever* thanks viet, i hope you like DEATH! :D just kidding, heartheartheart! i love small wonders. i get all manga fangirly in there even though my mom's like WTF?! it's kinda funny. and speaking of manga. just started reading GOODMORNINGCALL. it's soo good. *sighs*

and LAST NIGHT, i had an intense conversation with MARIA. it was...how do i say it? AMAZING. yeah it was. and me and douglas played a round of escape game. except. we stopped so we don't lose the spontaeneity. and now he's at the ocean taking pictures for me ! hooray.. and i think i'll post this icon because you know, taeyeon is pretty NOT yummy. :D JUST KIDDING. taengoo is so funny. in taht one horror clip i watched. WHICH WAS SO EFFING SCARY! D: tears forever! okay i'm off to go play games with little kids and stuff. YAY SCARING LITTLE KIDS! IF ANYONE. ESPECIALLY MAJKK. NEEDS ANYTHING. AND I MEAN ANYTHING. JUST CALL ME OKAY?! OKAY OKAY I LOVE YOU BYE! :D

heartheartheart, JDN!

VOTE!

Show Us a Smile 2 Brickfish

I Wish... Brickfish

jessica needs some cash and is effectively exploiting her sister. :D
vote a lot people. so jessica can go to UCI. heartheartheart!

*smiles*

i just left kelly the LAMEST voicemail ever. because she blogged about how she scared to tell us stuff. so i was like. DAMMIT, I'M TAKING THE INITIATIVE. and i called her number. and i'm like. "KELLY?! IT'S ME. ME JESSICA. YEAH. I JUST WANT YOU TO KNOW! YOU CAN TALK TO ME ANYTIME. OKAY, LOVE YOU BYE!" i am so lame. why am i so lame?! and now i'm eating my amazing. fusion of a cup o noodle and a cup o wonton. YAY ME. :D i'm going to go play now. i'm uber tired. oh yeah. CONGRATS ANHTHAI! got married. it was so cute. I WANNA GET MARRIED. *Tears forever* when i said that my mom was like WTF?! it was pretty funny. :D i'm so tired. running back and forth. *sleeeeeeeeeeeep* okay, i'm going to go be happy watching korean people hate each other now. LOVEEEEEEEEEEEE. call me if you need anything!

heartheartheart, jdn.

helloschoolgirl!

i like it!

escape game!

i just came back from an hour and a half run. and i feel good. :D first off. MARIA: good freaking luck today. i know you're gonna rock it! call me when you're done. so we can spazz about how good you did! FIGHTINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!

last night, HI DOUGLAS! :D he noticed i've been giving off bad vibes. WHICH I HAVE NOT. really! so we played a game of scarf buddy escape game. which was very very fun. because we went to seoul/capital city and we fell in cow poo. and we saw taengoo [who has a more radiant smile compared to me!] and we saw beautiful princess and we flew everywhere! and we went to candyland and tacosalad land [D:] and we DIDN'T go to a kpop concert. and we failed ap euro tests. *tears forever* it was realy. fun. NOW GO BUY ME FOOD!

and last night i had the WEIRDEST DREAM. we were in the mall. and who do i see but TAEKYEON FROM 2PM. so obviously i freak out and theresa who appears out of nowhere lends me her camera. so i can take pictures with him TO PROVE TO MARIA I MET HIM. you know? cause i have to. IT'S FREAKING TAEKYON! :D it was so weird. and then in my mind during my dream i'm like. MAN THIS IS AWESOME. I'M SO GLAD IT'S NOT A DREAM! but it ...was a dream. DARNIT! D: TEARS FOREVER.

and yesterday, me and alan had an intense "i know more about korean stuff than you do" fight. we still havent' finished. but i'm very surprised. that he knows anything at all. TOP DOESN'T LOVE YOU ALAN. HE DOESN'T! HE HATEEEESSS YOUUUUUU!

WEDDING TODAY. HOORAY. heartheartheart, jdn!

won't even start ; davidchoi.

what happened, after last summer. when we broke up. in september. i haven't seen you. feels like a long time. sometimes, it still hurts. but i always get by. i still got a piece of you under my skin., it's always there no matter where i've been. so if i ever see you on the street. i'll pretend that i didn't see, and turn my face. no use in small talk anyways. because if i look into your eyes. then i'll have to say goodbye. and that'll break my heart. so i won't even start. i wish you luck, and i wish it true. that's the best. i can do for you. 'cause you'll probably find love. in someone new. i have to let you, yeah it's hard to do. so if i run into you, with your arm by [her] side. just know it'll cut me like a knife. so i won't even start.

you:

i don't know. i don't understand these games you're playing. i don't want to play them anymore. because i always lose. it'd be so much simpler to just let it go. but the second i do, you're coming back to play more games. and when i try and play them again, i lose. i lose. i lose. why even bother. is it fun to watch me suffer. to watch me spend my time thinking of what to say next. wasting my time pondering what to do when you're around. is it fun. to watch me lose in a game i never wanted to play. i'm losing my mind. i can't get a grip. these mind games you're playing. i don't know what to do.i want to win. but i can't. maybe now, i just want to really lose. so i don't have to try anymore. maybe. it was all my imagination.

today:

was a yummy day. after school was the best. cause me and maria talked about the randomest stuff. :D

INTENSE CONVERSATION. :DDDD going to choir concert later. :D woohoo! thanks kevintran and ken for going with meeeeeeeee! orchestra auditions: EVERYONE SUCKS EXCEPT HENRY'S BROTHER becasue we know henry. ;D

back later. anyone need a bandaid? BECAUSE VIET HAS A NASTY CUTTTTTT!

TY.

thank you guys for coming to support me freaking. i love you guys sooooooooooo much! and i'll really appreciated it. ^____^; best part of today: coming out of the room with a FIST PUMP THING. :D will hyper blog later.

LOVE LOVE LOVE.
[jdn.]

you...me. we're both fools. [stay]

i was a fool. my regrets came late. no way to undo it. i can't see you. i know. i was wrong. i'm sorry. i couldn't say it then. i was being absurd. now in my grief. i ask for forgiveness. you, me...we're both fools. because of our pride. we break down with yearning. you...me. we're both fools. for still loving. i cry. like fools, you and i. stop. give us a chance. we've come so far. give it another chance. you might regret. i was wrong, and i'm so sorry. i couldn't say it then. i was being absurd. now in my grief. i ask for forgiveness. you and me. we're both fools. because of our pride. we wreck ourselves with yearning. you. me. we're both fools. for still loving. i cry. like fools, you and i. i can't live a moment without you. i drink, but my tears keep flowing. you and me. we're both fools because of out pride. because of the crazy yearning. we're breaking down. like fools. you and i. please don't be devestated anymore. [stay; goong ost.] don't be sad, because we're letting each other go.

*don't think so much into me putting this up. i just like it.

BRILLIANT!

HYPER BLOG TIMEEEEEEEEEE. :D OH MY GOODNESS. I LOVE YOU KEVIN LUU. thank you for getting the banquet date changed. omfgomfgomfg. now if i could get stupid _____ to ask me. D: i hope he does. i would be happppy foreverrrrrr. today was good day. :D *big smiles* audition for orchestra: FAIL! just kidding, i did okay. i'm not the "worst" that's for sure! and mirsch's class was sooooooo funny! i gave her the "perfect" answer for the last question on the quiz. and she's like. i LOVE YOU COME HERE. *opens arms for hug* jessica: uhhh... ISN'T THIS ILLEGAL?! and neil hugged her. it was HILARIOUS. and then we line up to get out for lunch. mirsch: *opens arms. jessica: o________O mirsch: *CRACKS UP* mrs. mirsch is so funnnnnny. i love her class. learning shakespeare with her is so fun. GIRLS LEAGUE INTERVIEW TOFREAKINGMORROW. i'm so nervous. if they ask me to sing my favorite song. kevintran said sing girls just wanna have fun. ANYTHING WITH GIRL AND LEAGUE. apparently. and he's like watch you're gonna freak and say HI MY NAME IS...KEVINTRAN! ahhh! armrape! :D okay listening to heaven [ftisland] which reminds me of when kelly told me about the mv and i'm like OMFG. POOR JAEJIN. D: that was pretty funny. *cracks up* MY BACK HURTS FROM MATTHEW'S MONSTER MASSAGE. i like brian's massages better.... D: and i have a bandaid on my wrist from the tape thingy making my skin raw. and i swear. everyone's staring at it. some people are like :"JESSICA DID YOU CUT YOURSELF?!" NO PEOPLE. I'M NOT RETARDED. kelly "cuts" her legs! THAT'S WHY SHE NEVER WEARS SHORTS. haha, just kidding. ^____^; but yeah. OMFG MARIA walking me home was THE BEST. kelly called us. and she goes "moshimoshi" and i'm like "anyong! unni?! unni!" and we talk to her in korean and japanese. it was soooooooooo funnny."YOU BABO!" i'm trying to do my nuclear weapons extra credit essay. BUT I'M TOO LAZY. okay, be right back. GOING OUT FOR A RUN. okay i'm back from my run. I DID NOT GET ATTACKED BY SPRINKLERS THIS TIME. nice job jessica! now i'm listening to that girl by DAVID CHOI. the vocal love of my life. sigh. :D WHICH REMINDS ME! when i went to the bathroom sixth period. who do i see but tommy, davidpham, and richard[freshie]. and i'm like TOMMMMMY should i go to your concert?! ;D and he's like NOOOO. and david's like dude, she totally wants you. so i proceed to grab tommmy by the shoulders and i'm like, dude yeahhhhh. tommy's so smexy. and tommy's like. I'M SORRY JESSICA. I'M TAKEN. me: KIHA?! OMG JAILBAIT. tommy: NO I'M TAKEN BY RICHARDDDDD. HE'S GONNA BE JEALOUS. *runs over to richard and hugs him* I'M SORRRRRY. SHE HUGGED ME. I DIDN'T DO IT. richard's just cracking up and i'm trying to kick richard for stealing "my man" IT WAS SO FUNNNNNNY! if ken goes to the concert. i'm so going to make a sign. "DO NOT LAUGH TOMMY. OKAY NOW LAUGH. HAHA!" lots and lots of fun. it might be on youtube people. ;D oh yeah. and i come home to FREE MILK TEA. WITH BOBA, i love you guysssssss. :D did i ever say that i lovelovelove TEDFU?! he is the comedic love of my life. except he's in love with his teddy bear. D: wongfu rocks. :D BUY ME A NICEGUY/GIRL SHIRT. someone DO IT. teddddfuuuuuuuuu. his comedic ability surpasses his lack of above average looks. he's cute in the quirky nerd kind of way AGREED? AGREED! :D okay listening to backstreet boys. HOW OLD SCHOOL?! dang, this must be the week of long blogging. ilikeitilikeitilikeit. lalala, circus: mcmong. mc mong is the most kick butt rapper singer guy EVER. i swear. he's so freaking COOL. and his girlfriend is so PRETTY. which is surprised because. mcmong. isn't... but he's cute in the funny rapper guy kinda way on 1night2days. WITH KANG HO DONG. woohooooo for kang ho dong! :D that reminds me. during fifth. it was so funny. petertran/oliver: dude, i heard reyes likes little asian girls. jessica: DUDE, IT'S A GOOD THING I'M NOT ASIAN! oliver: yeah just vietnamese. lucky you.:D AHHH, i keep seeing shadows behind me. it's FREAKING ME OUT. tengo miedooooo! MOSHIMOSHIIII! BRILLLLLLLLLIANT! :D okay i'm off to watch MALL COP. which looks so FUNNY. this blog is shorter than the one before, TEARS. i will blog longer tomorrow! loveeeeeeeeeeee you guys! OKAY I SERIOUSLY HAVE TO ADD THIS OR I'LL GO CRAZY. one two three. OMFG, I LOVE FLY TO THE SKY. ;D they're the bestttttttttt.

heartheartheart, [JDN.]

:|

mianhe.

thank you, i'm finally able to say. i've let you go.
& i'm finally. free.

BAGUETTE?!

today was yum. walked around like a complete idiot. because i sprained my wrist, not from falling out of a tree. but from falling out of my bed during the earthquake last night. lots of fun. ;D it was fun stuff. missed out on my daily massage because BRIAN HAD TESTING. grrrrrr, and this morning, in orchestra, we played an italian opera piece. and is it just me. or does playing ITALIAN music make you really crave BAQUETTES? and it reminds me of RATAOUILLE. great movie by the way. okay, now ft island is playing in the background. which reminds me. NOT DIGGING HONGKI'S GIRL HAIR. right!? but so digging minhwan's super growth spurt. ft island's gotten pretty quiet lately. *quiet tears* hmm, i feel it coming. a hyper blog again?! oh yeah, ken's in the HOSPITAL. PLEASE FEEL BETTTTTTTTTTTTTER. and WEDNESDAY: 340 is my girl's league interview. i am SO nervous. but i know i can go in there and rock it. whoot whooot! and thursday i think i'm going to go to the choir concert to cheer kathy and tommy on. contemplating making a sign that says. "TOMMY: DO NOT LAUGH. HAHA. :D" that will make him embarass himself for SURE! :D but i want someone to go with me? WHO'S FREE? COME PLAY WITH ME. :D oh, yeah and the run i had before this was fun. EXCEPT. i got attacked. BY SPRINKLERS. BLAHHHHHHH! tears for jessica. :D ohyeah, thanks michael&cj for the mini cupcake in my mini mailbox. right!? ;D NO MORE TACO SALAD. HAZZZZZZZAH! and i'm still in ANTIQUE mood. and neil is convinced douglas is gay for him or something!? and DAVID told me mr, baker's picture is ACTUALLY on neighborhood watch., so scary. should i look it up. I'M CURIOUS., okay, here goes...loading. I'M GOING TO CLOSE IT I'M SCARED. OMGGGG. okay i wussied out i got really scared. so i closed it. i guess i'll just have to take david's word for it. eeeeeek, but that's still scary. okay now, hug by dbsk is playing. which reminds me of yunho's BEFORE teeth that were so crooked. before he got nice veneeers to create the illusion of perfection and make girls raging hormones rage more or something. go father sm. ;D oh yeah, new shinee video. i'm TOO lazy to watch it. i'm scared i'll get addicted. so i'll watch it later. i hear it has krystal jung, jessica's sister in it. so nice, dianne says shinee had bad acne when she saw them at HB09. but i'm like. NO KEY IS PERFECT. okay now too much by crown j ft seo in young. is playing. lalalala, really love this song. i can't help singing along. oh yeah and KELLY& MINDY. keep trying to get me to watch the new taylor swift video., but i'm refusing JUST TO PLAY WITH THEM. MUAHAHAHHA! oh yeah, and last night i was up all night watching GOONG/PRINCESS HOURS. cause you know after that whole antique bakery fiasco. i have to watch all that is joo ji hoon. EVEN THOUGH HE IS A DRUGGIE. okay i will NEVER bring that up again. he is a very amazing actor. and i really like watching goong. cause SOME of the clothes are cool. not the old school clothes but yeah. and he's very cute at being. arrogant. and. they're cute together. AND when they hug it's like. awwww... WHY WON' T YOU HUG ME LIKE THAT JERK!? but seriously, yoon eun hye's character. CRIES ...TOOMUCH. gosh woman,. GET A HOBBY. SERIOUSLY. and plus when she cries. it's so...ugly and red. and sniffly. and i'm sure i'm ugly when i cry too, but still woman. YOU'RE AN ACTRESS. shouldn't father sm have a class on that? how to cry and still look normal. and another class. on how to NOT make creeper smiles in super junior videos. [YES KIBUM I'M LOOKING AT YOU BUSTER!] but in the end, when she cries. he hugs her. and that meks me go aww all over again. EVEN THOUGH HER CRYING IS GROSS! AND MAKES ME JEALOUS. :D and i hate that other girl. who's you know. the character foil girl. AH MIRSCH ATTACK. okay, enough about new/old obsession with goong. am downloading brilliant legacy. with subs. because i love lee seung gi. &^ han hyo joo, sh'es pretty. *JEALOUS ATTACK* the story line is cute. so i hear. so i'm going to obsess over it. kinda a cinderella story. hmmm, doesn't that ring a bell. cinderella man? yoona?! well cinderella man was pretty good, yoona's great. it's just. kwon sang woo , is so DARN OLD. and so DARN MARRIED. i can't do it! i can't! oh yeah, and i still have duy's aids walk bracelet. wooooopsies anyone? ;D and ALAN. STOP ARM RAPING ME. GOSH. GOSH. GOSH. we were screaming that after school. it was funn right kevin trannnnn? okay, so sick is playing., the cover by big bang., which makes me think of mindy's new obsession with TAEYANG., ewwwwwwwww grossssss. 2PM FOR THE WIN. FOREVER AND EVER AND EVER. heart heart heart times a million and one. :D okay, now i changed it and it's gonna be love by mandy moore is playing. which is from the walk to remember ost. WHICH IS THE BEST MOVIE EVER. RIGHT?! omfg, that is the best movie ever. *tears forever* after, antique. ;D hahahhaha. oh yeah. so. han hyo joo reminds me of tablo. cause they were a on screen couple on nostop5. which was so cuteeeeeee. i love nonstop + rainbow romance. someone buy me a copy. :] i think maria will like reading this one maybe. HI MARIA. CONNNNNNECTION! :D okay, romantic by shinee is playing. and TAEMIN is singing! which reminds me of the new sitcom taemin is in., AND I NEED TO WATCH IT., because he is so darn cute. and not homo antique-y at allllllllllllll! grrr! :D and now i'm contemplating whether to put picutres in this or not. would that be more interesting for you people? i will put some . maybe. okay no, i'm too freaking lazy. ;D okay, now. LOLLIPOP BY BIG BANG + 2NE1 is playing. which makes MARIA JESSICA AND KELLY WANT TO DANCE. AND SPAZZ ABOUT TOP'S SEXAYYYY VOICE. right?! which brings me to the topic of 2NE1's debut perf on sunday? or saturday? i mean, there is NO denying they are UNIQUE. and talented. but i think the hype just makes them a bit OVERRATED. i meant the debut perf was pretty good., but it was in no way., BREATHTAKING. like everyone thought it would be. you know? i was a little disapointed in little old man yg. come on dude. you can do better than that. XD okay, no make love by big bang. ENGLISH version is playing. :D and it reminds me of that one time. when i told kelly to sing this to someone. REMEMBER? I DO! :D okay, now. let me talk about the bird that suicided on my window. we were eating dinner last week.and we hear a THUMPPPP! and we're like. what. the. eff?! AND MY MOM'S FREAKING OUT LIKE: OHYMYGOODNESS. A BIRD JUST SUICIDED ON OUR WINDOW. except in vietnamese. which makes it all the more funny. but we couldn't find the body.CAT ATE IT?! but what a stupid bird. oh a window. let me fly into it and possibly DIE. that bird reminds me of. KELLY. because she looks like a turtle. and some birds eat TURTLES! gasp. so kelly-->turtle-->bird. so by the transitive property kelly-->bird. I AM SO ACING MY MATH TEST TOMORROW. HAHA! dude, nobody knows freaking tommy's screen name. and i want to bother him about confirmation next year. :DDDDD and his JAILBAIT PLAYER SKILLS. WHAT? you did not hear that from me. ;D oh my goodness i totally ran out of chapstick. WHICH SUCKS. because. i like chapstick you know? man, i need to go to TARGET. if target was a person, it would be my BEST FRIEND. sorry lany, but it's target you know?! ;D which reminds of the target story douglas told me yesterday., how he saw the district secretary. but he was so flustered. he FORGOT TO SUCK UP. haha sucker, you fail as los key club president. JUST KIDDDDDING. *cough impeach him* cough. WHAT?! WHAT?! no no no! he's the best. right?! him and neil have a BROMANCE. heart heart heart. :D so everybody better back off of neil and dougie. cause they're accounted for alright?! :D oh. beautfiul life by V.O.S. is playing. i love v.o,s, not as much as 2pm. but a lot more than kim kibum alright?! YEAH I'M TALKING TO YOU BUSTER. today, i want to wite. a REALLY LONG BLOG. with NO VIDEOS OR PICTURES TO MAKE IT LONGER JUST WORDS. PURE WORDS. words, words, words. note , the title baguette?! was already made the title. before i even started. BECAUSE OF MY ITALIAN MUSIC STORY. i like italy. omg, except EUROPE IS BAD! BAD I SAY. it reminds me of hostel the movie. where the girls get kidnapped in europe by this sultry sexy european lady. and she sells them to this torture for cash club., where people pay to torture these poor children. AND WE WATCHED THIS ON THE WAY TO MISSOURI. and i was so scary. and kelvin adn willy keep poking me with their DARN fake knife thingees we got at the souvenir shop. AHHH, DARN YOU GUYS. :D oh, 1234 by plain white t's is a good song. 1 THING 2 DO. 3 WORDS. 4. YOU. I LOVE YOU! i wish SOMEONE would sing me that song. SOMEONE. you know. just SOMEONE. this SOMEONE. who's first name is shorter than most. people. you know, typically less than seven letters. or six letters. or something. HAHAHA, yeah...SOMEONE! :D cough. :D pewpewpew. JANG GEUN SEUK. TOUCHOLIC. IS AN ADDICTING SONG. even though ti's all technologicified. it's really good. and addicting. i like i like. he has a nice voice. doremifasolatido was a good movie. mannnn. *tears forever* lalalla. TOUCHHOLIC. SOMETHING SOMETHING. TA TA TA TOUCHHOLIC. ;D LOL; i hear the words. dolce wallet?! WTF?! for realllios?! ohmygoodness. TIME FOR DINNER. HAHA, OKAY. be back later to more hyper blog.:D WHOA MY MOM JUST LIKE DISAPPEARED. okay, REALLY DINNER TIME NOW. okay so i lied. i was actually practicing for my violin re audition. BTW MCGARVIN KIDS. i'll be there at your audtion to scare you poooopie less. okay?! :D MUAHAHAH. okay DINNER FOR REAL NOW. COMMENCE DINNER EATING. DUN DUN DUN NOW. okay back from my yummy dinner. and i am SO FOOL. I MEAN FULL. oh man, that was embarassing. LOL. the simpsons is on. haha, grandpa is so FUNNY. :D blahblahblah i like you. :D WHITE GUMMY BEARS. the minority! there's never enough of them. darnit! i must change that. SAVE THE WHITE GUMMY BEARS. THEY'RE GOING EXTINCT. :D i am kdrama hunting. and kdrama hunting is fun. HUNTING= CHRISTINA HUNG'S BOYFRAAAND. ;D i miss watching kkokko tour. D: tears forvever. okay, to person number one: it's very hard for me to do this you know? maybe you shouldn't pop up everywhere i go.... person number two: i likeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee you did you know? person three: sometimes, you are very. over. ______. something like that., i don't quite know the word. it's just there. person four: stop being a drama queen. not everything is about you. person four: when i go to your choir concert: DO NOT LAUGH. :D person five: please get better. please. person number six: HAHA. YOU SUCK. :D yes , those who are reading this. it might not be the person you think it is. you might be surprised. i surprised myself. COMMERCIAL FOR DANCE FLICK. hahahahhaha, i wanna watch it. :D TMZ is on nextttttttttttt. EXCITED JESSICA. as embarassing as it is. i'm interesting in more interesting lives than my own. surprise surprise. i need to get back into graphic making. i owe my fraaaand over a d.beans a banner. & i owe douglas a DOUGLAS SUCKS great inheritance banner. and i want a new banner for my blog.whooooooooooots for jessica. CHOCOLATE CAKE TIME. uuuuuuuuugh, fattttttttttie. *rubs stomach* hahhahaha, okay okay oaky. i'm out . i think this was long enough. the new okay is OAKY. got it?! so, have a nice night. because i surely will . SUCKERS. :DDDDDDDDdd

heartheartheart. [jdn.]

movie marathon! :D

so today was my movie marathon with CJ. and we watched korean movies. cause we're lame. and i have to say. we picked some darn good movies. ^_______^ ; the first one we watched was antique bakery which i have to say is an overrated movie that i completed UNDERRATED. IT WAS AMAZINGGGGGGGG. i love it. i have to say, joo ji hoon is a GENIUS actor. it's so sad that he threw his life away for drugs, i mean come on. he would've done great things. and that's all i'm going to say about his reality. because in the movie, he's effing awesome. and the other characters are awesome. it was so freaking HILARIOUS. mild gay scenes. which i have to say made us BOTH uncomfortable. but overall, the gayness made it comical and kind of a light movie. the cutest character is probably yoo ah in's character, [he's the guy in the bottom left corner without the sunglasses]. he's so FREAKING ADORABLE. his character is adorable. his face is adorable. he's adorable! heartheartheart, new love of my life. ;D and the guy with the sunglasses is so funny cause he's kinda slow but it's cute. and the guy in the top right without the ciggarette, is the gay guy. who's so FUNNY. "he's the gay with the demonic charm" and its' so funny when they test his ability on other guys. IT'S SO FUNNNNNY. all in all, i loved it. especially. how it was very PSYCHOLOGICAL. cause it ties in with joo ji hoon's character being kidnapped as a child. and in the middle of the whole keeping the cake shop open, they have to find this other crazy kidnapper who uses their cake to kill kids or something. it was very thrilller status. and suspenseful. with a touch of melancholy. and LOTS OF LAUGHS. and cute faces. especially the french guy. my new favorite movie. "life is just so much better with a little bit of cake." i love it i love it. someone buy me a copy. 10/10. :DDDDDD

the second movie we watched was 100 days with mr. arrogant which is 2004. whereas antique was 2008. it's a VERY cute movie. kind of the opposite of my sassy girl. the guy makes the girl be his slave to pay for a damaged car. she hates his guts. he's funny. tidbits of caring about her that makes you go awww. it was really cute cause you could see the transition between oh i hate your guts and this is completely business to yeah i guess i have fun with you too to yeah I'M COMPLETELY IN LOVE WITH YOU. and the guy's character is so completely JERKY. i meant it's so funny. CAUSE WHO DOES HE REMIND US OF GIRLS?! DAMN, if only my life would end like this movie. with the guy doing a complete surprise move on the girl and whisking her off her feet. it was blissfully sweet. and made me cry when you know, all the stuff goes down where the mom's like STAY AWAY FROM MY DAUGHTER. and the guy tells the girl a lie. "i was just toying with you" and they go through that whole awful month of TRYING TO GET OVER EACH OTHER. TEARS FOREVER. and in the end, happily ever after. THIS MOVIE GIVES ME HOPE. ;D i like it. 9/10. :DDDD

and the last movie, we had to ... my sassy girl. yes, the typical have to watch korean movie. i liked rewatching it. TEARS FOREVER, it makes me cry everytime. the guy is so funnny. and the girl is so funny. she's so ... sassy. i love the part where she plays the piano. so much that i learned that song too. :D i love the ending. because. you know. THEY GET TOGETHER. COME ON. and the whole tree waiting thing. i mean come on, TEARS FOREVER. CAN YOU SAY TEARS FOREVER?! BECAUSE I CAN! GOSH, TEARS FOREVER. well cj didn't cry. but i found myself tearing up again! :D it's so funny when she barfs on the guy's wig. i remember that's duy's favorite part cause he wouldn't SHUTUP ABOUT IT WHEN I FINALLY WATCHED THIS MOVIE. and it's funny when she makes him go everywhere. and when she pretends to be pregnant to get him out of class. LOL. and when she makes him switch shoes. freaking hilarious. :D i wanna be bold like her man....OH YEAH , i remember she's like duy's dream girl or something. and CJ's. sorry cj, she's out of your league. and she's like 35?! EWWWWWW. old woman status. :D 10/10. :DDDDD

anyways. i think i want to watch that new movie that's gonna come out soon with kangin and him liking and older woman or something? it's called hello schoolgirl. REMIND ME. yeah, and i also wanna watch that one with eugene and the guy who rips out the 198th page or something. oh yeah, and i wanna watch that one movie with that one girl and...that one guy. oh and unstoppable marriage. THIS CALLS FOR ANOTHER MOVIE MARATHON. sooooooooon! :DDDDDDDDDD well, today was a good day. woohoo for antique bakery. :D BIG HEART.

heartheartheart,
jdn.

ding ding ding, and we have a winner .

it's you. <3

it's you. i don't need anyone else. it's only you. when you ask again. it's only you. even if you already have another love. i can't forget you. i can't turn back around. oh, the moment my eyes began to burn. the moment my heart was captured by you. i have no regret. i chose you. that's right. it's you. oh, whatever anyone says, it doesn't matter to me. oh whoever curses me, i'll only look at you. even when i'm born again, it's still only you. even as time goes by. oh when you tell me you love me. when you tell me thousands and millions of times. even when my heart sets on fire, my dry lips wear out. even when i'm born again it's still only you. even as time goes by. oh only for you. it's you. i don't need any words. it's just you. [you say] "it's too late" but for me it's just you. i know our love is WRONG. but i can't give up. i can't just let you go. my lips, cold as can be, are even more blue, i cry out to find your warmth. i'll call. even though, when i call for you. there's never a reply. i'll wait for you. it's just. you. why don't you know? for me, it's only you.

CONGRATS. TACO SALAD.

congrats to my little sister. had her first communion today. it was SO FUNNY. the little boy in the front row was falling asleep and drool was hanging out of his MOUTH on his own first communion day. HOW SAD. but it was fun anyways. and i had a lot of fun at the partayyyyyyyyy. yeah michael, YOU ARE A LOSER. it is very hard playing the wii while playing twister at the same time. YOU GUYS SHOULD TRY IT SOMETIME. ;D and thieunhi was so and so. I REALLY WANNA GO TO VYC. dammmmmmmmit, why was i born so late! THANKS MOM. just kidding. ;D but nghia si camp looks like it's gonna be LOTS OF FUNNNNNNN. ;D so i'm very excited. and then after. went to CJ's house for more celebrational partying as we played the wii and ddr and had lots of chips. and dip. and TACO FREAKING SALAD. i will never have another taco salad AGAIN. I SMELL LIKE TACO SALAD. I TASTE LIKE TACO SALAD. HECK, I LOOK LIKE TACO SALAD. i'm gonna barf out little rainbow taco salads tomorrow watch! D: and then after, went to rent movie. and OMFG. LIAR GAME. the manga is SO GOOOOOD, i'm completely addicted. AH, I STILL TASTE TACO SALAD. *DIES DIES DIES* okay okay, i'm good. NO I'M NOT. FREAKING TACO SALAD.

heartheartheart; JDN.

BIG. FAT. HAPPY. FACE.

yay for cherries. yumyumyum. OMFG. EPIK HIGH'S TOUR WITH FAR EAST MOVEMENT STARTS TODAY! epik movement! woohoooo. and thesims3 is out on june2. woohoo. and i got a five dollar dress at khols. woohoo! and now i'm fighting with vincent truong over cajun fries and cherries. woohooo. and today was pretty fun. RIGHT KELLY? i'll see you tonight baby, you fattie*. *seductive voice* ;D I FAINTED! JUST KIDDING. :D that was funny. and maria: KIBUM IS A F*G. :D he looks like a f*gggggggggg. why is he such a f*gggggggg. :D so funny. and mindy. jessica: hey cutie. mindy: hey sexy. *wink* and me and danny verbally yugioh dueled. in which i completely owned him. EXODEUSSSSSSSS. or something like that. AND yifu chinese flipped me off with three fingers or something. LOL. and now i'm fighting with my "cousin" vincent truong WHO DID NOT SAVE ME CAJUN FRIES. *tears* & omfg. THESIMS3. come on. people! am i the only one freaking out?! oh yeah, and it was really funny today. when ton [SPELLING?!] tried to seduce mrs ramos. mr. alcarez: TONNNNNNNNN. MS. RAMOS IS HERE! everyone: DUDE HURRY UP. SHE' S HEREEEE. and then he runs out and leans against the door. ton: hey...there mr. alcarez. ;D mr. alcarez: dude, ton you're looking good today. ton: yeah, thanks. you too man. oh hey ms. ramos. you don't look so bad yourself. *seductive voice* *WINK* :D soooooo funnnnnnnnny. oh yeah and we were talking about how GAY aj rafael is. [not really, but sorta? ;DDD IT WAS A JOKE. CALM DOWN FREAKY AJ RAFAEL FAN GIRLS!] and. OMFG. I JUST SWALLOWED A CHERRY SEED. I'M GOING TO FREAKING DIEEEEEEEEEE. man this is a long blog!!! i'm going to ramble today. cause i feel happy, cause i'm not worrying about you anymore. OKAY I'M NOT! now i'm going to watch the drama version of SUPER JUNIOR'S IT'S YOU! where kibum looks like a f*g. BUT KYUHYUN. OMFG. why are you so beautifullllllll? EVEN DANNY WOULD WANT TO QUEENELIZABETH YOU! [why btw. we all agree queen elizabeth was NOT a virgin queen. winkwink nudgenudge. ;D] okay, back to watching video., because...i just freaked out after seeing kyuhyun. MAN, THE VIDEO IS SO GOOD. I HAVE TO POST IT. OKAY I'M POSTING IT. now i'm going to continue watching it while eating a SUPERAWESOME SANDWICH. heckyeah! LOL. LOL. EUNHYUK AS A GANGSTER. *laughs maniacally* but i have to say, he looks pretty dep trai too. OMFG, SHINDONG SINGS. oh yeah, i remember he sand one time on starking. and it was SO GOOD. :D ohmygoooodness. hello sungmin, i see what maria means now. winkwink nudgenudge. ah man, this hit home. even if you don't respond when i'm calling you. i'm still waiting for you. DAMNIT. WAY TO RUIN THE MOOD. FREAKING RYEOWOOOK!.... just kidding. i love you wookie. ;D OH. WOW. hangeng. hello there. ;D HEY HEECHUL,., you look less gay, and like you won't kiss boys anymore. but we all know. that's probably not true... STUPID FAN SERVICES. XD hi donghae! fishyyyyyyyy. man, kibum makes the absolute MINIMAL appearance in this video so that people will know he's not freaking DEAD. [ danny wants me to spot him 60 bucks. SPOT THIS. PUNCH TO YOUR FACE!] ohmygosh, i love siwon, and your trench coat phone booth moment. ;D okay i'm done. uhhhhhhhm, wasn't REALLY a drama was it? BUT i really like how it's like. they're all in this video walking around each other. and yet they DO'NT RECOGNIZE EACH OTHER HAHAH LOSERS. just kidding, so i posted up this video. cause it hits the SPOT. it hits HOME. man. bambambam. mood shot. JUST KIDDING. that was fun. :D i'm going to write a really long blog. to make up for my minimal blogs lately. with three words. and making you guys guess. hahahahha! what else should i talk about?! BRB. TIME FOR DINNER. okay back from dinner. where i watched a little bit of john tucker must die. so funnnny. but now we're watching BARBIE: PRINCESS AND THE PAUPER. which isn't that bad. i like that one song where the two girls sing together and they're like LALALALLALA. we can't watch john tucker must die because my mom is being anal about how "those two don't even know each other! how dirty. opening and tongue. that's so nasty!" but in vietnamese. so it makes more sense. XD princess and the pauper it is. :D so how do they get the ham inside the croissant. I SAY. they cut it open and then sew it back together. don says they LASER IT IN. ;D NO IDEA. it must be MAGIC. :D i have a massive headache. HORRIBLE. except pronounced jessica style. which is. WHORE. EEEE. BLAY. :D haha, i just remembered how we read julius caesar in class. and the part where it's like . PEACE HO! and we were like. peace. HOEEE! :D man, the music from the barbie movie., is SO CATCHY. this is EMBARASSING. :D OH . CHERRIES! YUMMMMMY. i hope i don't swallow a seed this time. *smiles* ASTERIKS ARE COOL. * especially. when you make them all big looking. reminds me of the FML application on my itouch. fml is SO funny. :D hahaha! the "what are they thinking" articles on OMG. YAHOO. is SO FUNNY. :D i laugh so much. cause they wear the most retarderest clothes. ever. i wish i had a kick butt britsh accent. i could easily seduce kelly and mindy. "hey fattie, see you tonight. FOR SOME TEA. AND HARRY POTTER" omg! YES MAN IS THE BEST MOVIE EVER. i watched it like two weeks ago. and now ... guess. i want... a HARRY POTTER COSTUME PARTY! ;D freaking hilarioussssssss! oh yeah and this morning with david/taco was so funnnnnnn. :D i like your eraser pen! :D and talking about your ware*drawhouse* sale. and MY MAD HOUSE IS NOT THE TIN MAN. JERKFACE. D: i have an unhealthy obsession with twitter. it's just so FUNNY. i like retweeting random celebrities. I MEAN COME ON MILEY CYRUS. trying to be all philisophical. COME ON YOU'RE SIXTEEN. GET OVER IT! okay so i just went to wash the dishes. and i was like nah i dont' need to put an away message. and SOMEONE IMED ME. darnit! and my dad read it. and he's being all ANAL. D: dangnabit! oh the song i like in the princess and the pauper is playing. "just like me". such a good song. :D okay i think i'm done for the day. got to go to choir. and write my paper on nuclear weapons. WOOHOO. BOMBS!

heartheartheart, JDN.

LQ CONCERT.

okay, i'm off to the LAST orchestra concert of the year. will blog about it later. *tears*

I'M BACK. GOOD JOB LQ ORCHESTRA. <3
I HEART YOU SENIORS.
even though it was really hot, it was super fun.
it was super fun talking to vinh and tommy about how TOMMY IS A PLAYER. PLAYER PLAYER. and vinh's "problems" and thanks ken and tommy for coming. heart heart heart.
all in all, a great day. yeah? ;D

today.

she tried to build a time machine out of sticks and stones.
so maybe she could turn back time.
to when people didn't cry. and only smiled.
but, in the end, it didn't work.
and she went back to her world of tears and pain.
simply hiding behind her lonely smile.
[jdn.]




[listening to david choi's new album (only you) makes me reallllly happy. :D
it's unbelievable how music is so...unpredictable.]

asldkjfasdf.

so i wrote out an entire blog about this. entire thing. wtf is this. kind of situation. but i erased everything. because. ____________________. that is how i feel. and let's just say. i wonder how hard it'll be to smile tomorrow .

journal: may12.

she pours her heart out on the pages. word after word, she writes. her tears mix her words together, creating a jumble of emotions. she crumples up the paper. hoping that along with the words, her feelings will fade away too. they don't. the words, smudged with her tears, are gone. but her feelings remain. holding her back until she can't take it any longer. she willingly falls into the abyss of death. hoping it will take away the pain. it doesn't. she falls further it is dark. she can no longer see, blinded by her tears and this unrequited and irrevocable love that fate gave to her. she cannot scream, for her mouth is clasped shut with fear and desperation. she sees a light. she cries, thinking it is death coming to take her away. but it is not death. it is hope. she grabs the hand that pulls her out of the abyss of death. she is reborn. a new and complete person. untainted by pain and love. she starts over. with hope by her side. [jdn.]

today's horoscope.

libra: five stars. [dynamic] your ability to move past a problem or handle someone more clearly emerges after a very confusing conversation. tonight: listen to what another shares. could this person be saying, "i am sorry"?


oh geez. thanks for confusing me horoscope. XD today was pretty funny. in a not funny way. or something like that. happyhappyhappy. happy birthday BOB & ALAN. heartheartheart. off to read the alchemyst and listen to david choi singing that girl. [jdn].

i'm sorry .

even though i shouldn't be. i'm sorry. that i asked if you were okay. when i knew you weren't. i'm sorry i did all those things that i hate. i'm sorry i went out of my way to see if you were better. when i knew you weren't. i'm sorry for not standing up for myself. when you yelled at me. it hurt. yeah, because i'm nice. i didn't stand up for myself. because i didn't want to yell back at you when you were hurt too. i lost my self respect. that's what you said right? i'm sorry. next time, if i could do it all over again. i would do that same. can you believe it? i would let you yell at me until i cried if it made you feel better. i'm so sorry.

[gosh,i just reread this. and i make no sense.]

to my mother.

OMG, I LOVE YOU GUYS.

OMG. iloveyouguys. :DDDD
the one thing my sister had to say about this was: kelly has chubby cheeks.
heartheartheart, jessica.

<3

happy mother's day! :D
i love you mommmmmmmy.


AND IN OTHER NEWS i am very nervous about my orthodontist appointment, as always. D:<
AND! i'm completely jealous that dianne went to HOLLYWOOD BOWL LAST NIGHT.
KOREAN MUSIC FESTIVAL! alsk;djfaksdf, and she saw the love of my life. key from shinee there.
D:< tears forever, i'll go when i'm eighteen like she promised. ;D
heartheartheart, jdn.

a friend's confession. ; 2am.

but now, i'll confess to you.

HAHA!

ohhhh. shack a leeezay! :D

last night.

thank you for all the congrats texts and calls. i appreciate it. & thank you maria. for making me feel better. don't eat your siblings' panda express anymore you hear? time to practice piano. weeeeeeeeoh! heartheartheart, jessica .

WHOOOOOOT!

OMFG YOU GUYS! IT'S FINALLY OVER. the ap euro test. was freaking easy. ;D
I'M SO PROUD OF US, EURO KIDS. i love you guyssssssss.
i think we made mrs. crosby proud. ;D

APEURO :D

TOMORROW IS THE APEURO EXAM. i'm going to OWN it! I'M SO READY.
WHOOOTWHOOOT. MAKE MRS. CROSBY PROUD YOU GUYS!
HEARTHEARTHEART. :D

just friends; jonas brothers.

there he goes again. the boy i'm in love with. it's cool we're just friends. we walk the halls at school. we know it's casual. it's cool we're just... i don't want to lead you on. but the truth is i've grown fond. everyone knows it's meant to be. falling in love, just you and me. til the end of time, til i'm on his mind. it'll happen. i've been making lots of plans. like a picket fence and a rose garden. i'll just keep on dreaming. but it's cool 'cause we're just friends. small talk on IM, just one word sentences. it's cool we're just friends, if i had my way. we would talk and talk all day. everyone knows it's meant to be. falling in love, just you and me. til the end of time, til i'm on his mind. it'll happen. i've been making lots of plans. like a picket fence and a rose garden. i'll just keep on dreaming. but it's cool 'cause we're just friends. thinking about how we're gonna say our vows. it's cool we're just friends. i walk down the aisle. i see all my friends smile. cause now we're more than friends. everyone knows it's meant to be. falling in love, just you and me. til the end of time, til i'm on his mind. it'll happen. i've been making lots of plans. like a picket fence and a rose garden. i'll keep on dreaming. keep on thinking. of when we used to be just friends.

[the end. done. over. out. okay.]

FIRE. 2NE1.

fire; 2ne1.
final decision: catchy.

too much; crown j. ft. seoinyoung.

too much.

too much. i love you, only you, i need you. the shine in my eyes that watch you and the way i talk. they seem to imitate you little by little. my mood that's as bright as the sun. heaven's gift sent from above. you're my last love, i love it. a never ending fantasy as a duet. feels like we'll always be one team forever, let's do it. even though you're true self emerges when we're fighting. maybe i just think you're still pretty that way. baby at the moment, my heart still skips a beat. for me, i don't need any other [boy]. it's enough for me to love one. our feelings from our love are so soft. if i only have you, when i'm awake i'm living a dream. i love you, i hope my feelings don't ever change. from time ot time, because of you, one day feels like heaven and hell. but always inside my heart, always inside my head. is you. i told you i'm completely intoxicated with you. i love you, only you, i need you. the shine in my eyes that watch you and the way i talk. they seem to imitate you little by little. my mood that's as bright as the sun. heaven's gift sent from above. you're my last love, i love it. can i be happy as this? you're my fantasy. the voice you call me with. has a melody even the keyboard can't imitate. i'm sorry, i always leave you all the time. i'm busy alone, you always wander inside of my head, can you feel me. maybe i'm feeling anxious. if you ever feel worried, don't even allow yourself to think those thoughts. baby my love is heavy weight, every day. even when i'm away from you, i'm still thinking about you. on my finger is a ring that fits just right. when i brush against you hand, i'm going crazy. you're my best friend. trust me, i trust you. something i've always watned to tell you the whole day. : i love you, only you, i need you. the shine in my eyes that watch you and the way i talk. they seem to imitate you little by little. my mood that's as bright as the sun. heaven's gift sent from above. you're my last love, i love it.

; i had the most amazing day. & happy cinco de mayo & taco tuesday. and the apeuro study session was freaking amazing guys. :D

key of heart ; boa.

though we are in love. sometimes we do hurt each other. dry and cry. everyone has such an experience. i don't know the reason why. i could not find the word to get you back. and i turned my back to you going out. i don't want to lose your love in fact. looking for the word just a simple word. to open up the closing door of your heart. but it's hard to say for me, i'm sorry. i didn't lose my faith. i didn't love my nerve. let me go to see you. to say the word. not to be afraid. to face the fear. is the key of heart. thousands of your smiles. getting that when i look back on those days of us. now i feel they are still calling to me. maybe you're the same as me. searching for the chance to make it up now. i believe you to be waiting for me. i'll be with you shortly. looking for the word. just a sipmle word. to open up the closing door to your heart. let me try to say just once i'm sorry. now i close my eyes. wishing for your smile. my heart beat synchronizes with yours. not to make up my mind to reach you is the key of heart. to meet in this world. i just a wonder. now i want to say i was born to love. fall in love with you. live in your future, open up your doors. wrap me in your arms. let me dive into your heart once again. to try to keep our story going on.

chi thuy+ anh tam. <3

I LOVE YOU CHI THUY. DON'T FORGET US!

i'm going to meet you now.

within the people i simply brush by. i want to find you more than anyone. the eyes welled up with tears, that voice. i only want to hold you. if i miss you and call out to you, my dear. wherever i may be, it is for you. i'm calling your name again. because i'm like this. because you are the one i love. i'm going to see you again. a love deeper than my tears. the lamp on the street where we first spoke shines a light on my heart. everything that catches my eyes, everything. are memories that remid me of you. if i tell you that i've gotten to really like you. will you feel unsettled? i wonder. i'm calling your name again. because i'm like this. because you are the one i love. i'm going to see you again. a love deeper than my tears. with only you. no matter how many things. even if i'm reborn. will you feel unsettled. i wonder. i love you more than anyone. inside my heart. because you live in my heart. i'm going to meet you now. bringing along the promise of forever.