nobody's home. al.

i couldn’t tell you why she felt that way. she felt if everyday. and i couldn’t help her. i just watched her make the same mistakes again. what’s wrong. what’s wrong now? too many problems. don’t know where she belongs. she wants to go home. but nobody’s home. that’s’ where she lies. broken inside. with no place to go . no place to go to dry her eyes. broken inside. open your eyes. and look outside. find the reasons why. you’ve been rejected. and now you can’t find what you left behind. be strong, be strong now. too many, too many problems. don’t know where she belongs. she wants to go home. but nobody’s home. that’s where she lies. broken inside. with no place to go. no place to go to dry her eyes. broken inside. her feelings she hide. her dreams she can’t find. she’s losing her mind. she’s fallen behind. she can’t find her place. she’s losing her faith. she’s fallen from grace. she’s all over the place. she wants to go home. but nobody’s home. that’s where she lies. broken inside. with no place to go. broken inside.

happy birthday jeffie! <3

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JEFFIE. heartheartheart. camp was super fun. heartheartheart.

_____________jessica's journal.
+032009: i'm yours. you're mine. yes! heart forever. you and me. into eternity. romeo and juliet. defying the the rules. over the skepticism. a prince, and a princess. a boy and a girl. heartheartheart. lovelove. page 29.

+031809: he's that boy that can tease me all he wants. but with one smile. he could have me right where i always was. with him. he does all these embarassing things. that unintentionally laugh. and make me wish it was all on purpose. my heart races when i'm around him. sometimes, i think i should be satisfied with what i have. but somedays, i want more. i want to be special to him. just like the way he is special to me.

+032309: i wish he'd just. give me a little soemthing. so i know i' not doing something wrong. so at least. i know i'm doing something right. am i? am i? am i? can't i just a little. can't i get a little something. a little. hey jesisca. i appreciate you. whywhywhy are you such a challenge.

______dude, writing in a journal is fun. :]

BYEEEEEES.

epikhigh. heartheartheart

i'm off to camp. farewell my loves. i shall return for your hearts. :]

TA-HA!

today was a greaaaaaaaaaaaaat day.
& let's just say, only i will know why.
off to pack for camp. MAPTHESOUL.COM! checkitout.
because i LOVE epikhigh. righto. :]
thanks for making me happy today.

this fool.

when i walk into the room, i can feel your eyes looking over my way. scared to approach you ‘cause i don’t know what to do or what to say. my heart starts to beat real fast. should i leave or stay? it’s okay. my mind tells me i can do this so. approach you i know i should. we can always start this slow. don’t you know that i would. do anything for you let’s go. if you want me, just let me know. my arms are open for you if you tell me so. my feelings are so strong that i can’t help but let them show. any time or day. i want to hear you say. i love you so. don’t you know i always felt this way for you. the day we met when we locked eyes since then i’ve adored you. if i didn’t ask you out, i knew i’d be sorry. i don’t even care about the others before me. you warm my heart in winter. with your spring breeze. if you ever need somebody, i’m here.

HAHA!

the guy in the glass cube is my favoritest. heartheartheart. :D
i hope that cheers you up.

mirotic+so hot.

seriously just listen. because wheesung+lyn have greattttt vocals.
and it's SO CATCHY, :D

COME ON! :D

downside: i suddenly feel like i’m starting over again. like all that work was for nothing. like i did nothing at all.

MORE IMPORTANTLY. UPSIDE. varstiy tennis game was today against some super white lutheran school in orange or something. who i DID NOT like. because they were JERKS. to our boys. gr! anyways, they were like the polar opposite of the LQ team. we are the yellow asian bananas with see through white shorts. ^_____^ and they were the super white white tshirt white team with no see through pants. BUT OUR TEAM IS BETTER! it was fun watching. kevin and richard lost. tears forever! albert was pretty fun to watch. “COME ON. COME ON! COME ON.” stupid the guy he played made him run all over the place. JERK! and the guy playing kevin luu was like. SUPER LAME. “edward cullen” HE LAUGHED AT ME. and I GOT HIT BY THE BALL. NOT ONCE. BUT TWICE! GAH! D: tears forever. VICTOR IS A JERK WHEN HE PLAYS. oh wait, no that’s everyday. :] viet won. “enormous explosion.” it was funny when me and mindy were like freaking out every two seconds. and and and HIGH SOCKS. and two jessicas freaking out from the bee. uhhhhhm, NICE LEGS. :D

that is all. ^_^;

insomnia;wheesung.

warning: slightly catchy. at the least.

"because the thoughts about you are more life-like than dreams."
" i try to sleep, but it feels like insomnia."

everytime i hear this song, i just want to *dance.

rain rain.

		so I kind of imagine it like at a game. and I’m watching singles/doubles 3. and then I’m sitting down against the pole. and he finishes. and he sits on the other side. and I wave him over. so he gets up and grabs his duffel bag thing and comes to sit next to me so we watch ken and vinh. and then I’m chewing on some starbursts. and I grab my sharpie. and I write. “hi you” and then we have this whole starburst conversation. and then he grabs the pen and writes something down. and he gives it to me. and I read it and it says “ will you be my girlfriend?” and I’m kind of surprised. and I look at him. but he does that whole like looks completely in the opposite direction thing that he always does. and then I grab another starburst. and I write “yes.” on it. and then we all live happily ever after. heartheartheart. copyright jessicadnguyen.

journals

“I think falling in love is when you change for another person.” ©DH.

i think falling in love is when you change for another person. and when you don’t need to change a person because they are already perfect, with their flaws. change is good, sometimes., but too much change isn’t worth it. because if a person changes completely to your liking, they aren’t the person you fell in love with are they? ©JDN.

“how would you want someone to ask you out?” ©KDAO’S survey

write it on a starburst and throw it at me. :DDDDD ©JDN.

:D

"good luck" & "hi."

today more than yesterday.

i want to be special to you. that way you're special.
to me. ©jdnguyen.

l: change the world times infinity.

did i ever say, that l is best? because he is. ^________^;
i'm rewatching l change the world for the umpteenth time.
heartheartheart. l. :D

happy wednesday. :D

i'm very glad you're feeling better.

storytime.<3

here’s my story from my journal entry last night. it wasn’t something i planned. i was feeling not so great. and it just came out. some might interpret it a certain way, others another way. do what it what you will. just learn one thing: don’t give up. on your dreams. or your love. or your life.

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once upon a time, there was a little boy. he was a lonely boy, hidden behind a wall of vines and thorns. everyday, he stared at the wall, hoping someone would care enough to overcome this wall and become his friend. days past, but nobody came. little did he know that…once upon a time, there was a little a girl. everyday, she would walk by this wall. everyday, she tried to think of a way to get over the wall. people laughed at her naive ways. they told her that she was stupid for even trying to get over the wall. they told her a monster was hiding behind the wall. they told her nothing good would come out of that way, that many had tried and failed, that no one could get over it. but, she didn’t believe them. she kept trying, because deep inside her heart, she knew there was something amazing hidden behind that wall. she began cutting away the thorns and vines, slowly but surely. she worked and worked, pushing away those who discouraged her and pushing herself towards this goal: a friend. she hammered through the cement even though people pushed and laughed at her. when she got to the middle of the wall, the boy noticed the hammering and he quietly approached. at first, he was scared to speak to the girl and open up to her. at first, he couldn’t understand why she could possibly want to be his friend. but soon, he began to understand how much this girl cared about him. he opened up to her and she to him. before he knew it, as the little girl was working her way in, the little boy began hammering his way out, to her. they worked together to break the wall separating them. when the wall finally fell, the two stared at each other and finally saw what true friendship was. they smiled. and lived happily ever after. theend theend thend. ©jdnguyen.

patrick!

happy st. patrick’s day. or not so happy. because we’re all SICk. i’m worried about the others ‘cause they’re MORE sick than me. especially duy and kelly. duy stayed home and kelly went home after the cahsee. so I’m sick with worry, seriously. I hope they feel better. D: and me too, cause i’ve been getting cold sweats all day and it sucks. and i feel horrible. and i haven’t started my homework yet. so i’m tired. I hope maria feels better. and jeffie too. and kevinlulu. D: *sigh* I wrote a story in my journal. ^_____^. I’ll post it up tomorrow. because I’m too tired right now. ellen degeneres makes me laugh a lot. teehee. victor is stupid because he made fun of my skill at eating bananas. gahh. I’m just waiting for sick people to log on aim so I can scream “ARE YOU OKAY?!” I’m worried, make me feel better! D:

noky brothers! :D

one whiteish dress with A BOW. from macys: 25.00
two pairs of wet seal jeans [purple and acid wash]: 15.00
yogurt at yoyumyum owned by family: free.
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total expenses: 40.00
so, i reopened my tr thread. yay me. :D uhm,today was a good day. free yogurt. heartheartheart. and party later. here are three icons i made just FOR YOU. finally, FINALLY, mastered don't wanna try by frankie j on the piano. it sounds nice. me happy. what else? i'm really cool, yeah. funny pictures of the day are fun. so be careful. i might be taking your picture next. muahahhaha! :D the noky brothers make me happy. i hope they cheer you up too. heartheartheart.

funny picture of the day. :D

hello, my name is duy hoang.
and i eat babies for breakfast. :D

funny picture of the day. :D

hello, my name is tommy. and i am a LOSER.

reset.

amazing song. freaking amazing.
when i think about it, everytime i try to press the reset. i end up with you.
today: working on graphics. will post up later loves.
feel better lany, and kathy. heartheartheart.

p.s. i just remember it's white day in korea. soooo.
HAPPY WHITE DAY! heartheartheart.
bring me some candies. :D

why i like you;

new super junior album. is amazing. seriously.
i'm hooked. completely.
kyuhyun heartheartheart.

hm.

bait and release. bait and release. bait and release.
over and over and over again.
yet, i keep falling for the same old tricks.
you must be playing the game well.

don't wanna try; my everything.<3

baby, i don't wanna try no more. taeyang whoot whoot.
you're my everything, junsu whoot whoot. :D

sorry, sorry.

DON'T WATCH IT KELLY. ;D
got to say, expected more. but i still love kyuhyun. heartheartheart. :D

KT!

happy TENTH birthday kevin steven's boytoy. :D

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i'm tired of not knowing.

expenses.

starbucks: one venti passion tea with no water, whipped cream, and 6 shots of rasberry: 2.10
khols: one pair of blue tights: 0.88.
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total expenses: 2.98.

current events;

J: i got chrisbrowned!
D: YOU WANT TO GET RIHANNAED AGAIN!?

pray.

uhm, okay. my mom lost her job.

into eternity.

it felt like the first time i saw you, all over again.
and you took my breath away, all over again.

think.

thank you for the cross, my friend.